and since I can't guarantee that I will remember to post tomorrow...
Last year, September 1st was Labor Day. I was off. It was great.
Jake went into work for a bit that day and I went to take a shower about noon. I used the last digital pregnancy test in the house, to get rid of it. That way, I wouldn't have babies on the brain and I could just chill after the two miscarriage year.
So, I used it. and turned on the shower and grabbed my towel, etc. and went to look at the test. It was finished running. It also said: PREGNANT.
WTF?!!!
Thus began the adventure that will be the rest of my life.
It's been ups and downs and I wouldn't change a thing. Not one single thing. Because this little guy was meant to be here. He's way too cute not to be here.
Also: I can't wait to do it again. :)
I still want a girl.
Monday, August 31, 2009
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Do you find this odd?
So, I have Google Reader and I have blogs that I like to read. Is it weird that Blogger recommends my own blog to read to me? Because I think it is.
Anyway...
The transition to the crib was fine in the end. No big deal. We're working on naps.
Little boy still wakes up at night. Some nights, it's ok. Other nights, I'd like nothing better than to strangle him and go back to sleep...but, instead I throw things and swear and feel a bit better. And then I pick him up and feed him until he falls back to sleep.
I'm just not sure why...he always seems SO hungry when I pick him up. We think he's in a growth spurt right now too -- eating a lot and sleeping a lot.
So, Mom hurt her back, mostly because she just wasn't taking good care of it while watching him. It's better now, but she's not sure that she can watch him three days a week anymore. I'm not real sure what to do here. I knew that it wouldn't last forever, but I thought that she would at least make it a year. I'm thinking of asking my aunt if she would watch him one day a week and offer to pay her what it would cost at a daycare, which the one daycare that I've sent in something to is about $50 a day. I just don't know if she would be able to do it. I doubt it. She always seems VERY busy with David and Michael (my cousins).
My other thought was that she and Jake could switch off watching him for three days and two days...one could take three one week and the other could take three the next.
And my final thought is that I could just quit my job and stay home with Ryan all the time. Which wouldn't be that bad. Too bad I need my job. Maybe when we have the next one, we will be debt free enough that maybe I can stay home longer. I wish I could find something that paid well that I could stay home and do.
I hate my job. Actually, I hate that it's so inflexible and it's becoming even more inflexible. I would never want to work from home and watch kids at the same time. I did that one day this week as a test and NEVER AGAIN!! I was totally destroyed by 4pm. Next time, I will just take the day off. If it's unpaid, it's unpaid. it is what it is.
Maybe I could be an exotic dancer three nights a week. That would pay good, right? LOL! :)
The Couch to 5k program has hit a snag. In that, I never have the time/energy to do it. Which frustrates me. What I need to do is clean up the back room this weekend and then I would stay more on track. maybe I should be picking up back there right now...hmm...
Oh well. I still have weeks before the Discovery Run. I'm def going to do it. I'm actually looking forward to it.
Okay, I'm going to clean up some shoes in the back room and then take my lappy upstairs and lay in bed. hip-hip-hooray!
Anyway...
The transition to the crib was fine in the end. No big deal. We're working on naps.
Little boy still wakes up at night. Some nights, it's ok. Other nights, I'd like nothing better than to strangle him and go back to sleep...but, instead I throw things and swear and feel a bit better. And then I pick him up and feed him until he falls back to sleep.
I'm just not sure why...he always seems SO hungry when I pick him up. We think he's in a growth spurt right now too -- eating a lot and sleeping a lot.
So, Mom hurt her back, mostly because she just wasn't taking good care of it while watching him. It's better now, but she's not sure that she can watch him three days a week anymore. I'm not real sure what to do here. I knew that it wouldn't last forever, but I thought that she would at least make it a year. I'm thinking of asking my aunt if she would watch him one day a week and offer to pay her what it would cost at a daycare, which the one daycare that I've sent in something to is about $50 a day. I just don't know if she would be able to do it. I doubt it. She always seems VERY busy with David and Michael (my cousins).
My other thought was that she and Jake could switch off watching him for three days and two days...one could take three one week and the other could take three the next.
And my final thought is that I could just quit my job and stay home with Ryan all the time. Which wouldn't be that bad. Too bad I need my job. Maybe when we have the next one, we will be debt free enough that maybe I can stay home longer. I wish I could find something that paid well that I could stay home and do.
I hate my job. Actually, I hate that it's so inflexible and it's becoming even more inflexible. I would never want to work from home and watch kids at the same time. I did that one day this week as a test and NEVER AGAIN!! I was totally destroyed by 4pm. Next time, I will just take the day off. If it's unpaid, it's unpaid. it is what it is.
Maybe I could be an exotic dancer three nights a week. That would pay good, right? LOL! :)
The Couch to 5k program has hit a snag. In that, I never have the time/energy to do it. Which frustrates me. What I need to do is clean up the back room this weekend and then I would stay more on track. maybe I should be picking up back there right now...hmm...
Oh well. I still have weeks before the Discovery Run. I'm def going to do it. I'm actually looking forward to it.
Okay, I'm going to clean up some shoes in the back room and then take my lappy upstairs and lay in bed. hip-hip-hooray!
Monday, August 17, 2009
Part 3
I think that we've been successful here with the nighttime sleeping. Some nights he sleeps longer than others. He wakes up after about 8 hours to eat like a pig, but other than that, he sleeps like a little angel.
Like last night, for instance. He feel asleep about 8pm (maybe a little earlier) and slept until 4:30am. Then, at 4:30, he woke up and was very hungry (and angry) and took down 6 ounces in no time. Then, he went back to sleep and was sort of fussy at 6:30am. But, we just needed to have a new diaper, and he went back to sleep for another hour, which made Daddy very happy, because he didn't have to get up until 7:30 then.
And then there are nights where he wakes up crying at 11:30 or 12 and just needs a nook in his mouth to go back to sleep. Or he'll wake up to eat at 2am.
It's all a rich tapestry.
Now, we just need to work on getting him to nap in the crib, instead of the swing. But, small steps. Small steps.
More people that I know are having babies, which is really exciting. Makes me want to have another right now!!! :)
Okay, I can wait a bit. Like I've said before, as long as we are under $3k of CC debt, we will probably try again.
I also just started a Couch to 5k program this week. It's supposed to be a slow transition into running a whole 5k. So, I'm giving it a try, with the end point being the Lakefront Discovery Run 5k (instead of the 15k). It's Oct. 31st and this program is 9 weeks, which is around Oct. 18th or so. A couple weeks where I can try to keep running until the event.
I am really trying to lose these remaining 15 pounds. Then, we will see where I am then. Maybe I can just keep going and see how much weight I can lose. Maybe I can get down to 175 like I want to be.
I'm starting to worry that Ryan is allergic to cats. He sneezes a lot and rubs his eyes a lot too. I really hope his isn't. I would be really, really sad to have to get rid of the cats. A little part of me would die.
Anyway, I guess that's all. I've got babies on the brain even more now. :)
Like last night, for instance. He feel asleep about 8pm (maybe a little earlier) and slept until 4:30am. Then, at 4:30, he woke up and was very hungry (and angry) and took down 6 ounces in no time. Then, he went back to sleep and was sort of fussy at 6:30am. But, we just needed to have a new diaper, and he went back to sleep for another hour, which made Daddy very happy, because he didn't have to get up until 7:30 then.
And then there are nights where he wakes up crying at 11:30 or 12 and just needs a nook in his mouth to go back to sleep. Or he'll wake up to eat at 2am.
It's all a rich tapestry.
Now, we just need to work on getting him to nap in the crib, instead of the swing. But, small steps. Small steps.
More people that I know are having babies, which is really exciting. Makes me want to have another right now!!! :)
Okay, I can wait a bit. Like I've said before, as long as we are under $3k of CC debt, we will probably try again.
I also just started a Couch to 5k program this week. It's supposed to be a slow transition into running a whole 5k. So, I'm giving it a try, with the end point being the Lakefront Discovery Run 5k (instead of the 15k). It's Oct. 31st and this program is 9 weeks, which is around Oct. 18th or so. A couple weeks where I can try to keep running until the event.
I am really trying to lose these remaining 15 pounds. Then, we will see where I am then. Maybe I can just keep going and see how much weight I can lose. Maybe I can get down to 175 like I want to be.
I'm starting to worry that Ryan is allergic to cats. He sneezes a lot and rubs his eyes a lot too. I really hope his isn't. I would be really, really sad to have to get rid of the cats. A little part of me would die.
Anyway, I guess that's all. I've got babies on the brain even more now. :)
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Transitioning to the crib, part deux
Perhaps I should have mentioned this in the previous post, but Ryan spent his first three months sleeping in a pack-n-play. First, in our room and then around 2 months, we moved the pack-n-play to just outside our door.
When you have to feed a baby every two-three hours, it really is just easier to have him sleeping the room with you, especially when the only other bedroom is downstairs. Stairs that have to be gated off to keep the crazy, hungry cat out during the night.
So, anyway, this is where Ryan has been sleeping. Up until I finally just decided that he's learning to sleep in the crib, right meow.
So, last night, I had a very tired baby on my hands. He took a nap from 6:30 to 7:30 and then went to SLEEP sleep at 8:30. At 9, I put him in the crib and he slept until 11:30. I thought he was hungry, so I put the nook is his mouth and went to make him a bottle. When I came back, he had FALLEN BACK ASLEEP. So, I slowly backed out of his room, put the bottle in the fridge and went back upstairs. He didn't wake up until 4:30. Then, he ate a bunch and went back to sleep until I accidentally got him up at 6:30. I'm looking forward to tomorrow when I can just leave him in the crib, because it's Jake day to watch him.
All the crazy crying: My vote is sleep deprivation. Mom had him sleeping a TON today and she brought him back at 4:30 and he only stayed awake long enough to smile at me a bit and eat 4 ounces. So, he's been napping for about a 1/2 hour now. Which is fine. He'll get up, we'll change him, feed him, burp him and put him back to bed. It will be amazing. I hope.
Now, we just have to get Jake to attempt to put him down every 2 hours, whether it looks like he needs to or not. I hope Jake gets it tomorrow. I think that my mom has finally understood what I have been reading about. Now, we just need to get Jake. :)
I'll keep updating as we go. :)
When you have to feed a baby every two-three hours, it really is just easier to have him sleeping the room with you, especially when the only other bedroom is downstairs. Stairs that have to be gated off to keep the crazy, hungry cat out during the night.
So, anyway, this is where Ryan has been sleeping. Up until I finally just decided that he's learning to sleep in the crib, right meow.
So, last night, I had a very tired baby on my hands. He took a nap from 6:30 to 7:30 and then went to SLEEP sleep at 8:30. At 9, I put him in the crib and he slept until 11:30. I thought he was hungry, so I put the nook is his mouth and went to make him a bottle. When I came back, he had FALLEN BACK ASLEEP. So, I slowly backed out of his room, put the bottle in the fridge and went back upstairs. He didn't wake up until 4:30. Then, he ate a bunch and went back to sleep until I accidentally got him up at 6:30. I'm looking forward to tomorrow when I can just leave him in the crib, because it's Jake day to watch him.
All the crazy crying: My vote is sleep deprivation. Mom had him sleeping a TON today and she brought him back at 4:30 and he only stayed awake long enough to smile at me a bit and eat 4 ounces. So, he's been napping for about a 1/2 hour now. Which is fine. He'll get up, we'll change him, feed him, burp him and put him back to bed. It will be amazing. I hope.
Now, we just have to get Jake to attempt to put him down every 2 hours, whether it looks like he needs to or not. I hope Jake gets it tomorrow. I think that my mom has finally understood what I have been reading about. Now, we just need to get Jake. :)
I'll keep updating as we go. :)
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Transitioning to the crib
It's about time. I should have done it while I was still home from work, but alas. Lesson learned. The next one will probably be in his/her crib a lot sooner.
So, we started last night and Ryan was still recovering from Sunday, I think, because he went to bed at like 7. And slept only until 12:30. Then, he wanted more food. Then, he sleep until 4am. I got up and fed him just two ounces, hoping that he would just go back to sleep until 6am and then I could get up with him.
Instead, he woke back up at 4:45 and at that point, I was so tired that I just put him in his swing and let him go until whenever. I dragged myself up at 6:30am to get ready for work.
I'm hoping tonight is a bit better. Maybe he will be asleep here by 9 and maybe will sleep until 4. I can hope, right?
I gotta figure out how to get him to sleep through the night. Or what I was doing right before I went back to work. Whatever I was doing then was totally working. If only I could remember.
I read the Healthy Sleep Habits, Happy Baby book, and it's got really, really good advice, except for one problem for me: I don't have a baby that has a problem going to sleep right now. I have one that won't stay asleep. DAMNIT! I meant to give him his meds before bed. Shit. Oh well. Whenever he wakes up tonight, I'll give them to him them. dang. Anyway, what?
Oh yeah. I need to read the book again for better advice. Find what I'm looking for. Maybe buy the "No-cry sleep solution" book too. ????????
What else is new and exciting?
Ryan will be three months on Thursday. I can't believe that it's been three months! And if you can't believe that, then you won't believe that I'm ready for number two already...well...not RIGHT this second, but if we are under $3k by March on the credit cards, we'll go ahead and start trying anyway. Really best for the next one to be born in the winter. Preferably in early 2011. That way, insurance is totally worth it for the year. I just want to get this out of the way, for lack of a better term. That way, I can lose all the weight and not worry about whether or not I will be able to lose it all before we try again. I'm just going to try to be back to where I started by the time Ryan is 1. That's only 15 pounds. Small steps. Maybe try for 5 pounds by the end of the year.
Well, I'm going to put Ryan in his crib and pick up a bit around the house before I head up to bed.
Later!
So, we started last night and Ryan was still recovering from Sunday, I think, because he went to bed at like 7. And slept only until 12:30. Then, he wanted more food. Then, he sleep until 4am. I got up and fed him just two ounces, hoping that he would just go back to sleep until 6am and then I could get up with him.
Instead, he woke back up at 4:45 and at that point, I was so tired that I just put him in his swing and let him go until whenever. I dragged myself up at 6:30am to get ready for work.
I'm hoping tonight is a bit better. Maybe he will be asleep here by 9 and maybe will sleep until 4. I can hope, right?
I gotta figure out how to get him to sleep through the night. Or what I was doing right before I went back to work. Whatever I was doing then was totally working. If only I could remember.
I read the Healthy Sleep Habits, Happy Baby book, and it's got really, really good advice, except for one problem for me: I don't have a baby that has a problem going to sleep right now. I have one that won't stay asleep. DAMNIT! I meant to give him his meds before bed. Shit. Oh well. Whenever he wakes up tonight, I'll give them to him them. dang. Anyway, what?
Oh yeah. I need to read the book again for better advice. Find what I'm looking for. Maybe buy the "No-cry sleep solution" book too. ????????
What else is new and exciting?
Ryan will be three months on Thursday. I can't believe that it's been three months! And if you can't believe that, then you won't believe that I'm ready for number two already...well...not RIGHT this second, but if we are under $3k by March on the credit cards, we'll go ahead and start trying anyway. Really best for the next one to be born in the winter. Preferably in early 2011. That way, insurance is totally worth it for the year. I just want to get this out of the way, for lack of a better term. That way, I can lose all the weight and not worry about whether or not I will be able to lose it all before we try again. I'm just going to try to be back to where I started by the time Ryan is 1. That's only 15 pounds. Small steps. Maybe try for 5 pounds by the end of the year.
Well, I'm going to put Ryan in his crib and pick up a bit around the house before I head up to bed.
Later!
Saturday, August 01, 2009
Random
1. Birthdays:
I was wishing people on Fbook Happy Birthday this morning and it occurs to me that I turn 30 in a few short months. With the whole new baby thing, it has fallen to the back burner a bit.
I'm thinking that a party is probably in order at the house, since A. 30 is pretty big and B. we haven't had a "house warming party" as it were. Even though we have been here for two years.
I will consider it and see what I feel like doing. I suppose that it depends on how Ryan is going with sleeping and stuff. He'll be 5 1/2 months by then, so HOPEFULLY, he'll be a better sleeper than he is now.
2. Sleeping babies:
We've kind of gone backwards a bit with the whole sleep thing this week. He was going to sleep around 8 - 8:30 and sleeping until 4 generally. The past week, it's been a struggle to get him to sleep or stay sleeping -- like he'll fall asleep around 7:30, because he's so tired, but then he's up by 8:30 again, because he's hungry. Then, bottle and back to sleep. Then, back up at 2am for more food. Then, up before 6am, mostly because his diaper is soaked and that is uncomfortable. BLAH!!!
So, I'm tired, because I'm the one who gets up with him.
I've come to the conclusion that this was probably the worst possible timing to have a baby -- Jake has to work so hard in the summer and it was really difficult with Ryan being a newborn in the same time frame. By the time that Ryan is sleeping through the night and napping well, Jake won't be busy darn busy and tired all the time. Oh well. I've kind of started to plan the next one in my head and I'm thinking that Jan - Mar 2011 would be good.
3. F-ing Credit cards:
We'll probably try for the next one just as soon as we get rid of the stupid CC debt. Frickin' credit cards. And we haven't even been billed for Ryan's hospital bills yet. Which is another $1000.00 that we haven't got on our cards yet. I'm not even going to bother telling Jake, because it stresses me out and I don't want to talk about it. Oh well. We'll try our best to survive. A lottery win would be nice too though. :)
4. F-ing cats:
For some reason, the cat (little) jumped right on my face this morning. Causing me scratches and pain and yelling at 12:30am something along the lines of "WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?!?!". It hurt!! I have 5 little points from claws and a scratch right on the side of my nose. She didn't come back up to lay with us the rest of the night. I think I scared the crap out of her. I have no idea what the hell was going on. I wonder if she was running around in the dark and just flew up onto the bed and right onto my face. It sucked any way you look at it.
5. Getting rid of the shit in my house:
I really, really, really want to have a garage sale at the end of August to try and get rid of a bunch of our stuff (like sell it). Whatever is still here at the end goes to Goodwill. If we could get a car payment out of it or something, that would be sweet. Plus, there are SO many things that I can think of that I would like to get rid of. It would make me happier. Jake too, prolly. I started going through books upstairs in the bedroom. I want to put stuff somewhere when I decide that it will be apart of this garage sale, but where, I don't know. Maybe the Corolla will sit in the driveway for a couple of weeks and I'll borrow the tables from my parents and just put boxes on them, in the garage. I'll have to be careful, because I don't want stuff to start living in there. A couch from downstairs is also going -- the brown peacock one that I brought with us from college that Mariel left me. If we could make $200 - $300, that would be perfect for me. More is better. Less is okay, but I'm kind of hoping to get a car payment out of this. Or water bill payments to the city.
Well, I suppose that I should think about taking a shower and getting ready for the day. Jake will be up soon and he usually gets ready and runs away. I think that I'm going to attempt to go to the bank and close our savings account and open a new goal savings for Ryan and another just to have. He's sleeping right now. If he wakes up around 8 am, I will probably try to run up there around 9am, because then he'll be awake, but will have eaten. It's all about timing.
I was wishing people on Fbook Happy Birthday this morning and it occurs to me that I turn 30 in a few short months. With the whole new baby thing, it has fallen to the back burner a bit.
I'm thinking that a party is probably in order at the house, since A. 30 is pretty big and B. we haven't had a "house warming party" as it were. Even though we have been here for two years.
I will consider it and see what I feel like doing. I suppose that it depends on how Ryan is going with sleeping and stuff. He'll be 5 1/2 months by then, so HOPEFULLY, he'll be a better sleeper than he is now.
2. Sleeping babies:
We've kind of gone backwards a bit with the whole sleep thing this week. He was going to sleep around 8 - 8:30 and sleeping until 4 generally. The past week, it's been a struggle to get him to sleep or stay sleeping -- like he'll fall asleep around 7:30, because he's so tired, but then he's up by 8:30 again, because he's hungry. Then, bottle and back to sleep. Then, back up at 2am for more food. Then, up before 6am, mostly because his diaper is soaked and that is uncomfortable. BLAH!!!
So, I'm tired, because I'm the one who gets up with him.
I've come to the conclusion that this was probably the worst possible timing to have a baby -- Jake has to work so hard in the summer and it was really difficult with Ryan being a newborn in the same time frame. By the time that Ryan is sleeping through the night and napping well, Jake won't be busy darn busy and tired all the time. Oh well. I've kind of started to plan the next one in my head and I'm thinking that Jan - Mar 2011 would be good.
3. F-ing Credit cards:
We'll probably try for the next one just as soon as we get rid of the stupid CC debt. Frickin' credit cards. And we haven't even been billed for Ryan's hospital bills yet. Which is another $1000.00 that we haven't got on our cards yet. I'm not even going to bother telling Jake, because it stresses me out and I don't want to talk about it. Oh well. We'll try our best to survive. A lottery win would be nice too though. :)
4. F-ing cats:
For some reason, the cat (little) jumped right on my face this morning. Causing me scratches and pain and yelling at 12:30am something along the lines of "WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?!?!". It hurt!! I have 5 little points from claws and a scratch right on the side of my nose. She didn't come back up to lay with us the rest of the night. I think I scared the crap out of her. I have no idea what the hell was going on. I wonder if she was running around in the dark and just flew up onto the bed and right onto my face. It sucked any way you look at it.
5. Getting rid of the shit in my house:
I really, really, really want to have a garage sale at the end of August to try and get rid of a bunch of our stuff (like sell it). Whatever is still here at the end goes to Goodwill. If we could get a car payment out of it or something, that would be sweet. Plus, there are SO many things that I can think of that I would like to get rid of. It would make me happier. Jake too, prolly. I started going through books upstairs in the bedroom. I want to put stuff somewhere when I decide that it will be apart of this garage sale, but where, I don't know. Maybe the Corolla will sit in the driveway for a couple of weeks and I'll borrow the tables from my parents and just put boxes on them, in the garage. I'll have to be careful, because I don't want stuff to start living in there. A couch from downstairs is also going -- the brown peacock one that I brought with us from college that Mariel left me. If we could make $200 - $300, that would be perfect for me. More is better. Less is okay, but I'm kind of hoping to get a car payment out of this. Or water bill payments to the city.
Well, I suppose that I should think about taking a shower and getting ready for the day. Jake will be up soon and he usually gets ready and runs away. I think that I'm going to attempt to go to the bank and close our savings account and open a new goal savings for Ryan and another just to have. He's sleeping right now. If he wakes up around 8 am, I will probably try to run up there around 9am, because then he'll be awake, but will have eaten. It's all about timing.
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