Birfday

Thanks to everyone who left me message or gave me a ring yesterday. It was really appreciated, especially when I had to work yesterday, which turns a birfday into the same as every other day. And then, lots of people sent me messages, which was totally sweet. Same as talking to Nims and Salwassssss on the phone.

I didn't get blitzed, because it takes special circumstances for me to get schwasted now. Like, lots of people that I know and a good party -- not house party, but like, classy party. Like the Joy of Hastings Party....oh, wait, never mind.

Jake came back last night and we ate at Qdoba for dinner and then went and walked around the mall. I really wanted to get something from Williams and Sonoma, but I didn't know exactly what I wanted, so I just decided to wait. Jake doesn't go out and buy me things any more after he bought me big furry pillows one Christmas. It was a good idea, in theory, but I'm such a fancier that I like things for a minute and then I don't want them anymore.

Sidebar: Rush Limbaugh is a stupid jackass and I hope that he rots in hell.

Continuing: Left mall when I could decide on anything, and went to my parents house. I got a fight breast cancer golf towel for my bag, some fight breast cancer golf balls, which are pink and purple and pretty sweet, and THE iPOD!!!!! It's frickin amazing. I'm so pumped. I'm planning on downloading BSG Season 3 tonight and watching it on the way to GB tomorrow, so I am caught up. Well, except for night's episode. Maybe I will check tomorrow morning too.

Maggie, Ryan, Leo and Chloe all got me a gift cert to Amazon.com, which I also haven't been able to decide how I want to spend it. We'll see. I think that I got an extra sweet bday present this year because I really didn't get anything last year from my parents, other than dinner. Which was kind of a bummer in the end.

My Aunt and Uncle are sending me a card, I believe, because my uncle walked into my dad's cube Wednesday and said "write down her address, we lost it". Oh well. That should be sweet. Even if it's just $20. I'll take it. And if it's just a card, that's okay too, because at least they thought of me.

My cousin (their oldest child) turns 10 on Nov. 8th. I can't believe he's already 10. I remember turning 10. It was all kind of downhill from there until I got to college. But, maybe that's because I just kind of made myself an outcast in HS...oh well. It's in the past. But, if I would have gotten $20 on my birthday at age 10, that would have been pretty amazing. So, I will probably send a card with a 20 in it.

Anyway, with that, I bid you adieu. I have to finish getting ready for work and then drive 5 MINS!!!! I get to work in Brookfield today, which is totally sweet. :)

bye bye!

Orchestra and more Orchestra

So, today, while at work, I get this call about an opening at the Milwaukee Symphony. Basically, I come to find out, they filled the first position that I had applied for internally and my name came up for the opening in the Patron Services area that the person used to work. Which tells me that if they hadn't filled internally, I probably would have gotten the job.

So, the VP of Marketing is out of town, but the Marketing manager is here and I emailed her today after I read through the job description. I am REALLY hoping that I have a good chance with this position. The guy was very positive, so I emailed him as well, just to let him know that I was really really interested in the job.

Today, I ALSO went to my first Menomonee Falls Symphony Orchestra rehearsal, which was really good. We played/rehearsed Buckaroo Holiday from Rodeo, which was SO FUNNY, because all that I could think about was the last time that we played with everything that went on there. So funny. We also played mvt. 2 of Hanson's Symphony 2, which was awesome. I miss playing so much and I really had a good time tonight.

So, it was a symphony filled day today. I started my new position at the front desk today and that was okay too. I had a really busy day today and I did not get a lot of stuff done, which is kind of frustrating to say the least. But, that's okay.

I miss everyone. I called Nims tonight to talk to him about Rodeo and he was having a great time. So, if you didn't wish him a happy birthday today, you've still got an hour and a half.

I didn't get to run today, but I will definitely be going the next three days. Jake works until 8:30 tomorrow and he will be gone Wednesday night and prolly will be back late Thursday night. REMEMBER: If you're going to State Convention this week, stop by the Beihoff Music booth and say hello -- and if you're really awesome and have a band program, you should start ordering stuff and things through Beihoff. (shameless plug!) :)

Okay bye now!

Addendum to earlier post

Okay, so I MIGHT drive down to UWW for State. I wasn't going to, and then, while at home for lunch (right meow), I realized that both Johnseb and Amy said that they were looking forward to seeing me.

However, I also realize that they will be down here tonight, so I might try to go find them, wherever they are staying.

The cat (big) is trying to paw his way out the front window right now.

The missing comments made me realize something. I really hate blogger sometimes. Or my web browser. Which ever.

Back to work.

8:15AM in the Morning

So, I've been saying ALL Fall that I was going to make the trek over to Whitewater to watch some of the competition this year. Well....

It's supposed to be cold and rainy at the same time and I just don't do cold and rainy. Blah! Plus, if it is raining, that will push the competition inside and that is usually WAY too loud.

So, I'm being a jerkhole and staying home. But, I will think that you're all awesome and I wish you the best of luck. I'll definitely be thinking of you.


So, the Cards are in the World Series (again). All I can think about is 2004 when they were SO hot going in and were SURE to give the Red Sox a good run and then they folded faster than Superman on laundry day. 4 games and out. But, it was fun watching Maggie freak out and then having to distract her from the game by saying stupid shit.
I did try to call her last night to see which game she's going to, but she didn't answer the phone. Which was strange, because the game had JUST ended, and she's so hard core that she should have been watching.

I'm going for a nice relaxing weekend here, and then kind of a crappy week next week. I start working part time at the front desk for RE and part time in accounting. Which is okay. I figured it was that or I was going to be asked to go back to part time or WORSE, I'd be let go for lack of work. Which is hardly fair because one person shouldn't even be working in there and the other I KNOW they were going to fire before the old boss left. Suddenly, I'm the expendable one. Actually, the one that shouldn't really be in the department is the one that I like -- she can stay. The other one I haven't really liked all that much. They are both a little dumb, but she is MAJORLY dumb. 2+2 is 4. 2+2 is 4.


I also am officially back in graduate school again. I got my packet of information yesterday. I only have to take 2 background courses (as they call them), but I should probably take the finance one again, because I got a C-, but I really didn't learn anything. I'm going to try to set up a meeting with my first advisor to ask him about that and how I go about getting a actual major advisor. The process seems confusing to me -- why don't they just assign me a professor/advisor. Oh well.

I'm really looking forward to this. I do like school and I'm sure in a couple months, I'll be complaining about having to drive down there and what not. But, I am excited. I really think that this will be the thing that can get me where I want to be. And I'm not taking out millions of dollars in student loans. Although I WAS thinking of doing that and then paying off other student loans with that money. Kind of like consolidation. I probably will not however.

I also did NOT get the MSO job (did I write about this?...I don't remember). They EMAILED me. WHAT is up with THAT? That's fine. I really wasn't sure about working there so much anyway. And that is okay. My phone interview, in retrospect, was only okay. It could have gone better. Still waiting to hear back from eFunds about the other job. Although, on my way out, it seemed like that was probably a bust too. More interviews and I'll call you in a couple weeks? Seems like the only reason they interviewed me was cause of my dad and not because they thought that I was qualified, which is more irritating than anything. Don't do me or him favors. If you think that I'm qualified, then interview me. If not, then don't waste my time please.

Anyway, I have to go to work now. Which I really wish I could stay home. Oh well. Last Friday for a while that I have to drive out to Hartland. Starting next week, I work Fridays in Brookfield again. Sweet.

I ALSO turn 27 this upcoming week. Send me gifts and cards please. I actually had a dream last night that Adam Boll and Colin Gilliland were both trying to make me pink birthday cake. Adam was making some elaborate creation with pink frosting and Colin was making fluffy pink cake in square muffin tins and was using, like, tie-dyed frosting.

So, on that note, let's start the weekend!!!! :)

I'm having a harder time today for some reason

I'm not sure why. I think it's because I purposefully stayed home yesterday and Jake was home, so we hung out. And I was not alone. Now, I am alone and able to think by myself.

I try not to feed the wolf, but sometimes it is difficult.

I still have the "if only" thoughts and I wish that I didn't. My only hope is that there is a paralell universe somewhere that does not have the hole that ours does now. Even though I am in a completely different place than I was last year, I still feel like screaming every once and awhile.

Don't get me wrong, I'm glad that I am where I am now, because, despite being only an hour away from EC last year, I was also extremely depressed and extremely self-destructive.

And so, I sigh, take a deep breath and try to keep moving forward while not forgetting the past.

I got some good working out advice today, and so I think that I will try it.

I asked my parents for an iPod for my birthday. Black, video kind. I asked for the 30GB, but my dad said "The 80GB is only $100 more." I said, "Whatever you think Dad."...hey, I'm not going to tell him what to buy. If he wants to purchase it for me, so be it. I won't turn it down. More Battlestar Galactica and other TV shows and stuff. Hopefully they actually buy it for me. Then I will totally have a sweet time working out. :)

Okay, well, I feel a little better know. So, I go and take some iBuprofen to make the headache go away. I should probably eat too. The little cat is sitting next to me now.

If you will be at the State Competition on Saturday, I'm going to drag Jake down there, so hopefully I will run into some of you down there. I think.

I wish you were here

I feel like I should say more, but I don't want to. It's all been said in my mind.

So, what I will say is this:

I miss you. As morbid as this can sound, I can't wait to see you again.
Happy birthday and keep watching out for us.
I'll keep looking for you in my dreams.
And I will watch out the best that I can.

Le sigh

I really want to go through all my pictures that I have and organize them better, but there are a million other things that I would like to do as well, and so that will have to wait. I'd like to wait until I have an external HD and can get some other stuff off the lappy. Like Battlestar. Which I STILL haven't watched. I'll probably go over to Mom and Dad's on Saturday and try to watch it. I should have gone over there yesterday, but I was too drained.

Plus, my mom kind of gets on my nerves sometimes and I just want to shake her. She's always just so down and negative all the time, which is weird for someone who survived cancer. I think that she just was expecting to lose weight with radiation and chemo but it didn't make her THAT sick and she just ate whatever. So, now, she's pretty much healthly, but now as all the problems that come with being overweight. I really want her to lose the weight, because it's too much for her body I think, but I don't really know how to help her. It so frustrating.

I love my mom, but I want her to care. It's hard to help her when she won't help herself.

I don't remember if I posted this or not (and I think that I did), but I'm pretty sure that I got into grad school (again). I didn't really have a doubt when I scored a 6 out of 6 on the writing section of the test. I'm pretty excited for that. I have an advisor and everything. I'm just waiting for the admission stuff to come in the mail, which will hopefully be next week.

I can't believe that I turn 27 at the end of the month. Life is so fast. I really (and I KNOW I've said this before) want to start a family soon. Like, before I'm 28. Or least in the works before I'm 28. It's so weird, because in the Eau C world, I'm the oldest, but out in the "real" world of working and stuff, I'm one of the youngest people. It's just so strange to me.

Jake apparently is going to be at the State Music Convention at the Beihoff Music booth. So, stop by, say hi and give him some business, so he can stay working for them. He's at the bottom of the totem pole there, you know. :) He's going Wednesday and coming back Thursday night, which, is, OF COURSE, the night before and the day of my birthday. Oh well. It's just another day. But, after last year, I really kind of wanted to do something a little more than just another day, you know? Last year, I worked 6 hours, drove to EC, played for Branden's Memorial Service and then went out to dinner with friends. Johnseb came, which was totally sweet. And she totally yelled at that waiter too. That was amazing. But, it was just strange. My parents didn't really get me anything, which was weird. We went out to dinner in Hudson a lot later after my bday and that was it. Just strange.

Oh well. Brookie is coming home the weekend after my bday, so we will probably go up there to see her and hang out. But, that is a couple weeks away yet.

Well, it's time Grey's anatomy. Bye bye!

Since it's out in the open now...

Well, I've decided that the news is out, mostly because the ultrasound is a facebook picture and Colin is disgusting.

The others are Joe and Lisa Hartson, which WAS probably common knowledge at the time that I posted, but I wasn't positive about it and I didn't want to deprive them of the privilege of telling friends, so I just left it at that. But, since Colin is gross, the Hartson's are also having a baby.

I'm at home today and let me tell you, I wouldn't mind being pregnant myself. At least it would be a 9 month break from all the other BS that comes with being a girl.

Well, I guess that's enough sharing for today. toodles!

First of all...

I just want to say that Colin is a dirty dirty person.




ho-kay, now that's over...

Interview'd with the Milwaukee Symphony today. I think that it went really well, but maybe I shouldn't think that way. It'll get my hopes up. But, I thought things went okay, so here's to hoping that I get an in-person interview. :) Hopefully Monday. I took off Monday (because of the day), so I can go down there, even though it's that day.

Now I'm just going to wait to see if I get either job that I interviewed this past week. And if I don't get either, I'll just resume looking again when those two opportunties pass.

Anyway, just going to the gym to workout for 20 minutes or so and then come back and sit on my butt! :)

Maybe.

For some reason, ALL of the parking spots in the extra lot are taken. I don't know what the hell is going on, but for some reason they are all taken. It's really irritating, to be honest.

Well, that's all. Off to the gym place. bye bye

I am super excited!!!

So, during the long wedding weekend...which I wish was another 5 days...I got a call from the General manager of the MSO (Milwaukee...) to have a phone interview for the Operations Assistant position that I have mentioned previously as the magically disappearing job from the website.

So, I'm pretty excited. I'm just hoping that my cell phone doesn't cut out during said interview. I'm planning on driving to the junction of 83 and I-94 to have a stronger signal. I am pretty excited because that would be the best job ever. Or least would get my foot in the door.

So...what happened with Homecoming? Was Fat-Z Queen? How were the merciless peppers of Quetlzacatenango? Grown in the jungle primevil by inmates of a Guatamalean insane asylum?

So, we stopped at the Hertel's on the way up to GB to drop off G.Nate and I got to ask Maria the information that I have wanted to know since I found out about it: When Kelli Lester was due (April, in case you're wondering). However, while we were there, we found out some more interesting news. Another couple is having a baby, due in May. I won't mention here until it's common knowledge, but it was very funny to find that out while at the Hertel's house.

Anyway, good times at the Hertel residence. I miss everyone! :) I laughed more at Josh and Maria's than I have in many many weeks. So sweet. I miss laughing.

All things G.Nate'd'd'd

G.Nate is here, right meow.

He's the first to try out the new guest bedroom. I think that the cats even left him alone last night -- like, no Mitchell banging on the door. Pretty sweet. I even rushed around and cleaned all the crap away from the door and moved the cat box out of there. I may just leave it in our room. Probably will force me to clean it out every day.

I hope that it was amazing. He's hanging around while we're both at work today and then we're driving him to the Hertel's on our way to GB for the wedding. Wish we could join everyone for Homecoming. I really want to see Fat-Z as the HC Queen.

Job Interview'd'd'd this morning. With eFunds, which is where my dad works. That should be okay, I think. I've decided what I don't like about my job -- it's my boss. She's too much of a control freak. She has to check and double check everything and can't really just trust us to do the job that we're getting paid a significant amount to be there for. How do you justify, in your mind, and in your budget, paying someone $13 an hour to do basic office work that really would be 7 or 8 bucks an hour. Maybe 9 since it's Milwaukee.

Hope the interview goes well. The lady at the MSO emailed me back and said that she would be getting back to me shortly. Probably early to mid next week, I hope. The deadline for resumes is Monday, so maybe by Wednesday she will know who she is interviewing and maybe I'll have an interview next Friday too. I'm just hoping that eFunds doesn't decide super fast that they want me, because I really want to have a genuine shot at the MSO too. Maybe I will say that I need a week to decide if they call me back right away. I don't know. I should have waited to have an interview until next week, but I was so excited that they called me back already. It's funny, because they schedule the interviews at the corporate HQ in Scottsdale, AZ, but the interview is here. I got a call from Arizona while I was working yesterday about an interview.

We'll see. Maybe the job won't be a good fit for me and I'll just have to wait to see what the MSO does anyway.

I just want a job where I actually have to use the skills that I learned in college and grad school (for the little bit that I went) instead of just whatever.

I have no issues with the place that I work, just the boss. And I will probably tell the owner that if/when I leave. I would totally buy my house through there and everything. I just don't like her. alkjsljfaljfljs!

Anyway, I am going to finish my oatmeal, so I'm not hungry during interview and then take a shower! Wish me luck!

Frustration!'d'd'd

Hey, I've that title before!

Today, something happened at my job which made me so angry and frustrated, I almost started crying at work. I had asked for something at work, because I was working on a project and I thought that getting something else from the boss's office would be helpful, but she was out. This was yesterday. Instead of telling me that no one is allowed in her office when she's not here, the office manager (whom I had asked to let me in), said she'd get back to me, never did, told the boss that I had asked to get into her office. Today, she emails all three of us, saying that someone had asked to get in and blah blah blah, no one is allowed in when she's not there. Two minutes later, she sends me an email asking me why I had asked, that she was surprised that "an employee" had asked to get in, and that she hoped it was "a misunderstanding".

What the fuck? I just explained why I had asked, because I thought that if I had the info, things would go smoother than the piecemail bullshit that we've been doing. If I wanted the corporate bullshit, I would have stayed at the bank. I was just so angry about it. Why am I "just an employee"? Why did she not just ask me first and then send out that email? Why can't people just communicate at this place?

I was so mad, I didn't do anything. I just sat there. Then, I started looking for arts jobs again, and lo and behold, there was a job open with the Milwaukee Symphony Orchestra! It is the Operations Assistant position for Operations/Artistic/Education departments. Seems like it's Maggie's job at the SLSO in MKE. I would be SO excited if I can even get an interview. I know the Artistic Manager for the MSO through SAI, so I'm going to email her and ask her about the job. We haven't met yet, but SAI makes us sisters, so it's cool. :)

It's time to move on from the current job. I don't like my boss and I don't like my prospects. There's no future for me there. But, I would still use them to help us buy a house.

OH! I bet I didn't say that! If we can save up $5000 by April 1, Jake and I are going to try to find a house. My mom and dad said that the money that I give them for the payback of the loan for all my credit card debt, they will give back to us as a gift to buy a house. I'm really hoping that we can find something for $100,000 to $115,000...probably in West Allis or maybe Waukesha if we're lucky.

So, that's exciting for us, anyway.

Nothing much else, I just wanted to vent, even though I will probably vent to Jake when he gets back. Thank goodness that I only work two more days this week. guh.

And we're here....

October. My favorite month juxataposed with a terrible anniversary.

Nothing much to report from here. Things are finally slowing down for Jake at work, so he's a feeling a little less stressed out all the time, which is great. On Friday night, we went out bumming around and went up to the Steinhafels Superstore in Germantown or Menomonee Falls (it's on the edge of the two, I think) and went to look at queen size beds in the Clearance center. And we found a NEW BED!! aldjlkjdflkjads!

So, now we have a pillowtop Simmons Beauty rest, with a Sealy low profile box spring. Which means there's more room for cats AND Mitchell doesn't have to jump up so high to get onto the bed at night. However, they don't really let me sleep that much, so the ear plugs are being purchased and the door will be shut. Stupid Mitchie. Sometimes I think that they just want me to get up and come out to the living room.

But, we finally could use the sheets we got for the wedding and it's really pretty great. We also have a guest bedroom now too, and as soon as I can get the rest of the stuff in the apartment cleaned up, we will be good.

We went and picked up the bed Saturday morning and then we spent time cleaning out the cage downstairs, so there's more room down there now for crap that we don't need in the apartment. Then we moved more stuff out of the apartment down there, which is great, because there's that many fewer boxes up here looking sad and dumb.

So, Jake is happier and I'm happier. It's cleaner up here. There's more to do, but it's good for now.

I've gotten more done on my advent calendar that I've been trying to cross stitch for the past couple months, and that makes me happy.

Well, I have to finish getting ready for work this morning. I wish that I had more to talk about. BUT: I figure, at least you know that I am still here if I just give the play by play of our lives instead of deep thoughts.

bye bye!