The sinus thing is gone. Hooray for drugs!
However, I am convinced that the drugs mimicked the symptoms of pregnancy for a while, making me think that I was, even though there wasn't too much of a chance for that. V. weird though. I am still in the middle of my longest cycle EVER but expect it to be over soon. Then, back to trying. I think that if I'm not knocked up again and a good way into a pregnancy by the end of 2008, I'm going to put things on hold for a bit and train to run the 1/2 marathon up in EC...but, it's hard to sign up for it when you don't read the future.
I think that there's a good chance that we will be by the end of the year though, so I'm not too worried about that. I think that we've got the timing down to an art now. Plus, it really helps to do all that charting and shit that you can do to tell when the best time is to "go".
Going up to the Netherlands this weekend. Luxemburg. Should be good. My only request was to go to Hobby Lobby in Green Bay on Saturday. Other than that -- nothing else. I don't care what we do.
The printer is awesome. It inspired me to get my wedding scrap book out and actually pick out paper for the backgrounds and keep it downstairs so I can use it when I get my pictures sorted out.
We're quickly coming up on the due date of the first baby. I'm not sure if it makes me sad or not. I'm more consumed with trying again than worrying about the past. I hope. I tell myself that, but...you know. I do think sometimes that I really should be sitting here, over 8 months, with a cute little nursery to create, but that will come in time. It really will. I know it.
Oh! And I went to the new doctor -- he's really great. Older and pretty good. Knows what he's talking about, which is always good. He said that he believe that the 'heart-shaped' thing wasn't an issue, esp. since they didn't notice it during the first pregnancy in February, but did notice it in July. Made him think that it corrects itself in my case and probably shouldn't be an issue. He said that he could do thyroid testing and some other tests, just to make sure that everything is a-ok, but he also said that the second time was just a blighted ovum -- in other words, just shitty luck. However, he's much closer to home, so I feel good about that. And, they have later appts and the office was MUCH MUCH quieter. He thought that the next time, I would be just fine.
So, my thoughts are that we'll go one more time here and see what happens. If we lose it again, I think that we will probably proceed with testing me to make sure my thyroid is working right and I don't have auto-immune disorders or a clotting issue or something that could be treated and worked on.
So, let's all cross our fingers that the third time is the charm!
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Pictures and other things
So, we got this printer on Woot. Kodak EasyShare 5300. 45.00 plus 5.00 for shipping.
We wanted something that would print pictures easier than the one that's in the basement. And it SURE DOES! :) However, it's a refurb and the printer has problems with the printhead, so we immediately had to get a new one and now it works fine. It prints really nice pictures too. Jake is testing it.
So, I did get drugs for a sinus infection and I have felt better. My cheeks still hurt a bit from time to time, but I don't have the constant sinus headache anymore. Hooray! Thank you drugs.
I also have an appointment with the doctor that my GP recommended. It was kind of strange/funny. His assistant called and just gave me the name of the person that he recommends for high risk patients to go to. D'oh! Oh well. I kind of knew that I would be high risk, but to hear it out loud...blah. But, there was a cancellation, so I have an appt on Thursday afternoon at 3:30pm, so that's really great. I don't really know what's going to happen at it, b/c once I told the appt lady that I had been referred by Dr. Olson and that I had m/c's this year, she didn't really ask many questions, which makes me think that they knew the basic reason why I was calling.
We'll see what happens. More updates to follow. For now, off to try to stay awake until 10pm.
We wanted something that would print pictures easier than the one that's in the basement. And it SURE DOES! :) However, it's a refurb and the printer has problems with the printhead, so we immediately had to get a new one and now it works fine. It prints really nice pictures too. Jake is testing it.
So, I did get drugs for a sinus infection and I have felt better. My cheeks still hurt a bit from time to time, but I don't have the constant sinus headache anymore. Hooray! Thank you drugs.
I also have an appointment with the doctor that my GP recommended. It was kind of strange/funny. His assistant called and just gave me the name of the person that he recommends for high risk patients to go to. D'oh! Oh well. I kind of knew that I would be high risk, but to hear it out loud...blah. But, there was a cancellation, so I have an appt on Thursday afternoon at 3:30pm, so that's really great. I don't really know what's going to happen at it, b/c once I told the appt lady that I had been referred by Dr. Olson and that I had m/c's this year, she didn't really ask many questions, which makes me think that they knew the basic reason why I was calling.
We'll see what happens. More updates to follow. For now, off to try to stay awake until 10pm.
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Make it stop...
So, on Friday, while at work, I started feeling yucky. My head hurt, I felt like I had a fever, sick to my stomach...all that crap.
It was on and off Saturday, but Sunday it was back and hasn't really left.
So, now I'm worried that I have the dreaded sinus infection that doesn't seem like a sinus infection. Plus, another girl at work has a sinus infection, so I'm a little worried. I'm going to the doc Thursday AM though.
And I get to have a cavity filled tomorrow! FUN! *roll eyes*
And finally, in the world of doctors, when I was making the appt with my GP, I checked to see if they had received my records yet and they hadn't...curious.
So, I called the old place and they finally called me back after 5 hours to tell me that they never got my release form. WTF!!!! So, I asked if I could just pick everything up -- which I can do (and if they told me that, I would have just done that last week!!!), so I'm picking that up Thursday afternoon and will attempt to drop if off on my way home...we'll see. I will probably ask about making an appt for the next appt -- like when I should make one for, so I have it set up. Hooray. Maybe we can get somewhere here. I'm not waiting for #3 to happen before I get tested for stuff. Two is two too many.
The Olympics are pretty sweet. And now my sudafed has worn off (after an hour), so I will go to the place where I don't have to think anymore.
It was on and off Saturday, but Sunday it was back and hasn't really left.
So, now I'm worried that I have the dreaded sinus infection that doesn't seem like a sinus infection. Plus, another girl at work has a sinus infection, so I'm a little worried. I'm going to the doc Thursday AM though.
And I get to have a cavity filled tomorrow! FUN! *roll eyes*
And finally, in the world of doctors, when I was making the appt with my GP, I checked to see if they had received my records yet and they hadn't...curious.
So, I called the old place and they finally called me back after 5 hours to tell me that they never got my release form. WTF!!!! So, I asked if I could just pick everything up -- which I can do (and if they told me that, I would have just done that last week!!!), so I'm picking that up Thursday afternoon and will attempt to drop if off on my way home...we'll see. I will probably ask about making an appt for the next appt -- like when I should make one for, so I have it set up. Hooray. Maybe we can get somewhere here. I'm not waiting for #3 to happen before I get tested for stuff. Two is two too many.
The Olympics are pretty sweet. And now my sudafed has worn off (after an hour), so I will go to the place where I don't have to think anymore.
Saturday, August 09, 2008
It seemed like a good idea at the time
So, I just moved my grandmother's desk that I inherited in 1999. It's a "real" piece of furniture -- you know, solid wood. Well, mostly anyway. It's really heavy.
The worst part of moving it was that I have really strong legs, but am totally unable to transfer as of that force to my arms, so I have to solely use my legs to move the darn thing.
But, it's moved. Yay! And I don't have to run today! Now, I can move the glasses cabinet to where the desk was in the guest room and put the extra end table in there for the TV. I decided to move it in there, b/c it just takes up room in the living room and we could move the couches more toward the TV. But, I'm think that the end table might be too big for the room, so it might not work out that way.
I'm really happy with the guest room at the moment. It's a lot more empty -- it's a room instead of a room that the junk was going into. Having the basement really helps a lot.
I'm considering having a kind of housewarming party (finally!) around my birthday. We can really get everything to where we want it and have enough room to have more than two people over. Okay, well, maybe not that far into the future, since the deck would be unusable at that point, probably, but soon. I think.
It's been a long year.
So, yesterday, it was determined that the reason that Jake has been feeling so horrible for months on end is not depression or anxiety or a virus or whatever. He's had a sinus infection! For months! The ENT doc took about 2 seconds to figure it out. So, he's on the antibiotics and feels a TON better, b/c he knows that he's not going crazy. Now, you're probably wondering why he didn't notice he had a sinus infection, as I did. B/c it's not in his front sinuses, where it would really be noticeable and would really hurt. It's all in the back, clogging his throat and ears and making him feel yucky all the time. Crazy. I've never heard of such a thing. I, however, feel that if he didn't blow his nose so hard, it wouldn't force all that crap back into those back sinuses and ears. That's probably why this happened this way. Oh well. What can you do? At least he'll get better now! yaay!!! :)
I don't know what project will be next around the house. Maybe attempting to refinish the guest room wood floor, as a test to see if we could do the living room floor. I think that re-doing the bathroom might be next summer. I know that Jake owes Josh some help in Luxemburg with their bathroom, whenever that happens. I'm mostly handy with a paint brush. But, I want a new bathroom.
A project this winter may be fixing the back splash in the kitchen. Which would involve ripping of that crap back wall (whatever that shit is) and putting new drywall up, patching and tiling whatever we decide to tile. A trip to HOBO might be in order to look at tile again. I found some sweet tiles there that I would really like for the bathroom. So, there must be other stuff there too. I think that eventually, we will redo the kitchen floor with cooler tiles as well. We know there's a good sub floor down, so all we would need is new, nicer tiles.
My final thoughts for today are that when making blueberry pancakes, you should always ALWAYS use real fresh blueberries. No frozen. I disliked blueberry pancakes until this morning, when I made pancakes and threw in fresh blueberries for Jake. They were amazing!
The worst part of moving it was that I have really strong legs, but am totally unable to transfer as of that force to my arms, so I have to solely use my legs to move the darn thing.
But, it's moved. Yay! And I don't have to run today! Now, I can move the glasses cabinet to where the desk was in the guest room and put the extra end table in there for the TV. I decided to move it in there, b/c it just takes up room in the living room and we could move the couches more toward the TV. But, I'm think that the end table might be too big for the room, so it might not work out that way.
I'm really happy with the guest room at the moment. It's a lot more empty -- it's a room instead of a room that the junk was going into. Having the basement really helps a lot.
I'm considering having a kind of housewarming party (finally!) around my birthday. We can really get everything to where we want it and have enough room to have more than two people over. Okay, well, maybe not that far into the future, since the deck would be unusable at that point, probably, but soon. I think.
It's been a long year.
So, yesterday, it was determined that the reason that Jake has been feeling so horrible for months on end is not depression or anxiety or a virus or whatever. He's had a sinus infection! For months! The ENT doc took about 2 seconds to figure it out. So, he's on the antibiotics and feels a TON better, b/c he knows that he's not going crazy. Now, you're probably wondering why he didn't notice he had a sinus infection, as I did. B/c it's not in his front sinuses, where it would really be noticeable and would really hurt. It's all in the back, clogging his throat and ears and making him feel yucky all the time. Crazy. I've never heard of such a thing. I, however, feel that if he didn't blow his nose so hard, it wouldn't force all that crap back into those back sinuses and ears. That's probably why this happened this way. Oh well. What can you do? At least he'll get better now! yaay!!! :)
I don't know what project will be next around the house. Maybe attempting to refinish the guest room wood floor, as a test to see if we could do the living room floor. I think that re-doing the bathroom might be next summer. I know that Jake owes Josh some help in Luxemburg with their bathroom, whenever that happens. I'm mostly handy with a paint brush. But, I want a new bathroom.
A project this winter may be fixing the back splash in the kitchen. Which would involve ripping of that crap back wall (whatever that shit is) and putting new drywall up, patching and tiling whatever we decide to tile. A trip to HOBO might be in order to look at tile again. I found some sweet tiles there that I would really like for the bathroom. So, there must be other stuff there too. I think that eventually, we will redo the kitchen floor with cooler tiles as well. We know there's a good sub floor down, so all we would need is new, nicer tiles.
My final thoughts for today are that when making blueberry pancakes, you should always ALWAYS use real fresh blueberries. No frozen. I disliked blueberry pancakes until this morning, when I made pancakes and threw in fresh blueberries for Jake. They were amazing!
Tuesday, August 05, 2008
Feeling inspired...
So, I just added some "new friends" on f-book yesterday. Mostly kids from the neighborhood that I have known since I was 6 years old. One girl that I was friendly with in HS and was a fellow horn player. I had forgotten how much I enjoyed talking to her and hanging out with her. Also, the wife of one of those friends, whom I feel that I have a lot of stuff in common with, yet, we're completely different. I am feeling inspired by her adventures since she has moved up here. Makes me want to do lots of things. Creative, crafty things.
One of the things she did was make her own upholstered headboard for their bed. And now I want TWO! I have a guest bed downstairs and our bed upstairs that could both use one. Maybe a project for after I move all my sewing shit downstairs into the new room. Which I am thinking would be a good project for this weekend. I have some shelves I want to build to put down there -- I don't want to store all my stuff in plastic tubs anymore.
Also, I want to have a garage sale to get rid of all this extra shit we have -- which includes clothes, shoes, misc. kitchen stuff, and other random stuff that is just taking up space and frustrating me.
In the world of fertility/infertility news...
Just waiting for my records to get sent to Dr. Olson this week. They only send them once a week, so it won't be Thursday, possibly Friday until they are sent out. I'm assuming that they get mailed over to him, so it will be Monday or Tuesday before he gets them. I wish that I would have asked if I could just come out and pick them up and deliver them myself...oh well. They are my records. I still could, I suppose. Tomorrow is only Wednesday. But, I will call next Tuesday and see if he received anything from them and to ask about the next appt. with him. I have all the other info that I need. And I have a strong feeling that I've said all this already. HA! I just checked, I didn't! I want to get this show on the road. Although, we're not really "not trying", so...whatever happens, happens.
Also, I'm considering starting a separate blog about this whole journey towards having a baby. What a journey it has been so far. Perhaps I will not feel so bad having more "graphic" contact there too. I sometimes hesitate at putting the "gory" details here, as it were. If blogger had cuts OR if I knew how to use this thing better, maybe I could win at this game. Not that I want everyone to read the gory details, etc., but this is real stuff that is happening and sometimes I need to get it out in the open to move on. Plus, I'm crazy. Ask Jake.
I've got nothing else new. I wish that I would have done some sort of exercise tonight. Maybe I could go downstairs and trying to see if the Playstation is really hooked up right and play DDR. Maybe....I've lost the "baby weight" from this last PG so far, so now we're on the next 4 pounds. If I wasn't terrified of mosquito bites, I would probably go outside and run in the evening.
I love how much Ned Yost hates the media. It makes me giggle. And I really dislike Trenni on FSN.
Okay, I have to get this lappy off my legs. I'm burning up.
One of the things she did was make her own upholstered headboard for their bed. And now I want TWO! I have a guest bed downstairs and our bed upstairs that could both use one. Maybe a project for after I move all my sewing shit downstairs into the new room. Which I am thinking would be a good project for this weekend. I have some shelves I want to build to put down there -- I don't want to store all my stuff in plastic tubs anymore.
Also, I want to have a garage sale to get rid of all this extra shit we have -- which includes clothes, shoes, misc. kitchen stuff, and other random stuff that is just taking up space and frustrating me.
In the world of fertility/infertility news...
Just waiting for my records to get sent to Dr. Olson this week. They only send them once a week, so it won't be Thursday, possibly Friday until they are sent out. I'm assuming that they get mailed over to him, so it will be Monday or Tuesday before he gets them. I wish that I would have asked if I could just come out and pick them up and deliver them myself...oh well. They are my records. I still could, I suppose. Tomorrow is only Wednesday. But, I will call next Tuesday and see if he received anything from them and to ask about the next appt. with him. I have all the other info that I need. And I have a strong feeling that I've said all this already. HA! I just checked, I didn't! I want to get this show on the road. Although, we're not really "not trying", so...whatever happens, happens.
Also, I'm considering starting a separate blog about this whole journey towards having a baby. What a journey it has been so far. Perhaps I will not feel so bad having more "graphic" contact there too. I sometimes hesitate at putting the "gory" details here, as it were. If blogger had cuts OR if I knew how to use this thing better, maybe I could win at this game. Not that I want everyone to read the gory details, etc., but this is real stuff that is happening and sometimes I need to get it out in the open to move on. Plus, I'm crazy. Ask Jake.
I've got nothing else new. I wish that I would have done some sort of exercise tonight. Maybe I could go downstairs and trying to see if the Playstation is really hooked up right and play DDR. Maybe....I've lost the "baby weight" from this last PG so far, so now we're on the next 4 pounds. If I wasn't terrified of mosquito bites, I would probably go outside and run in the evening.
I love how much Ned Yost hates the media. It makes me giggle. And I really dislike Trenni on FSN.
Okay, I have to get this lappy off my legs. I'm burning up.
Friday, August 01, 2008
Feeling better about lots of things...
Many things have happened since last week...I finally miscarried, which was hands-down the worst pain I have ever felt in my whole life. It was much, much worse than the last time. Jake said he came home and I was yellow, white and blue. My jaw was yellow, cause I had just thrown up, white for the same reason and pain and blue b/c I had huge bags under my eyes. I'm not sure how I made it through it all, but if Jake hadn't been there, I probably wouldn't have.
But, the blood draws are going well. On the 22nd, I was still around 5,000. But, I m/c'd on the 25th and by the 29th (this past Tues.), I was only at 178. My next draw is on Aug 12th and I would think that I will be at the "not-pregnant" state by then. woot!
But, I am manifesting my sadness about this m/c differently than last time -- this time, I can't ever stop doing stuff. It's weird. I was super busy at work, which was great, and if I sat around for an hour at home, I would get really upset. Better to just keep moving. I am trying to start running again. We went once for a short run a week and a half ago and that was hard. Then, on Tuesday, I went out at about 8pm, b/c I couldn't watch the Brewers any more. I ran for 3/4 of a mile w/o stopping. Just me and the sound of my footsteps. Oh, and the occasional car or truck. Trying to lose that weight!
I also made an appt to talk with my GP today to get an idea of where to go from here. He wanted me to get my records transferred to him (easily done), find out what kind of infertility coverage I have (it's 100% covered after the deductible is met!) in case some testing of that sort needs to be done, and find out what doctors in the area are covered (most of them). I feel much, much better about everything too. It's amazing. I almost just needed someone to tell me what to do, b/c I wasn't getting that from the other place. It was great. So, as soon as he looks at my records from the other place, he can determine where we need to go from here -- if he can treat me as is (I'm starting to think that I'm skewing towards high risk more than not) or if he needs to refer me to a high-risk OB full time. At least he can help me make a good decision. If he can be my OB/GYN as is, great! If not, at least he can help me make an informed decision about my care, instead of picking and choosing, like last time. Because that worked out oh-so-well.
I also have an appt with a doctor that a few of the women at work go to see Aug. 27th, but I may end up canceling it if stuff works out with Dr. Olson. I hope it does. It took me about 10-15 mins to get from my work to his office. Sweet.
Anyway, enough wasting of bandwidth here. Just have to spew this all out, so it's out of my brain! :)
But, the blood draws are going well. On the 22nd, I was still around 5,000. But, I m/c'd on the 25th and by the 29th (this past Tues.), I was only at 178. My next draw is on Aug 12th and I would think that I will be at the "not-pregnant" state by then. woot!
But, I am manifesting my sadness about this m/c differently than last time -- this time, I can't ever stop doing stuff. It's weird. I was super busy at work, which was great, and if I sat around for an hour at home, I would get really upset. Better to just keep moving. I am trying to start running again. We went once for a short run a week and a half ago and that was hard. Then, on Tuesday, I went out at about 8pm, b/c I couldn't watch the Brewers any more. I ran for 3/4 of a mile w/o stopping. Just me and the sound of my footsteps. Oh, and the occasional car or truck. Trying to lose that weight!
I also made an appt to talk with my GP today to get an idea of where to go from here. He wanted me to get my records transferred to him (easily done), find out what kind of infertility coverage I have (it's 100% covered after the deductible is met!) in case some testing of that sort needs to be done, and find out what doctors in the area are covered (most of them). I feel much, much better about everything too. It's amazing. I almost just needed someone to tell me what to do, b/c I wasn't getting that from the other place. It was great. So, as soon as he looks at my records from the other place, he can determine where we need to go from here -- if he can treat me as is (I'm starting to think that I'm skewing towards high risk more than not) or if he needs to refer me to a high-risk OB full time. At least he can help me make a good decision. If he can be my OB/GYN as is, great! If not, at least he can help me make an informed decision about my care, instead of picking and choosing, like last time. Because that worked out oh-so-well.
I also have an appt with a doctor that a few of the women at work go to see Aug. 27th, but I may end up canceling it if stuff works out with Dr. Olson. I hope it does. It took me about 10-15 mins to get from my work to his office. Sweet.
Anyway, enough wasting of bandwidth here. Just have to spew this all out, so it's out of my brain! :)
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