Wednesday, September 27, 2006

I'm copying Mary.....YEA!!!

I'm a little bored right now, so I'm going to copy Mary today:


1.) Where were you when the ball dropped for 2006?
Sitting in The House -- I was either talking to Andrea and Colin on the couch; or sitting in Adam Boll's room talking to him, Andrea, James, Colin, etc.
2.) How did you get the idea for your myspace name?
it's my username for EVERYTHING!!!!
3) What are you listening to right now?
No music -- That 70's Show
4.) Has the death of a celebrity ever made you cry?
Generally -- not like, sobbing, but a little tear...I'm too empathetic.
5.) What color underwear are you wearing?
Pink and white
6.) Do you live in a zoo?
I have cats. One is Raccoon shaped.
7.) What did you do this morning?
Woke up and drove to work...blah.....
8.) What does your mom do for a living?
Umm...goes to school full-time from home. Medical Transcriptionist
9.) Where do you work? Real Estate company in Hartland
10) What ended your last relationship?
Well, "we weren't really dating", but I reached down, pulled my head out of ass and realized what the fuck I was doing...
11) What are the last two digits of your phone number?
20
12.) What was the last concert you attended?
Lauryn Hill in 1999...a LONG time ago.
13.) Who was with you?
Friends from college that nobody know and friends from high school that nobody knows.
14.) What was the last movie you watched?
What a Girl Wants -- I love Colin Firth.
15.) What do you dislike at the moment?
Being bored at work and living in an apartment
16.) What food do you crave right now?
QDOBA!!!!!
17.) Did you dream last night?
Honestly can't remember and I usually can remember...weird.
18.) What was the last TV show you watched?
Watched House last night, and the two Law and Orders that aren't the regular kind.
19.) What is your favorite piece of jewelry?
My wedding ring
20.) Name someone on your Top 8 who is just like you?
on myspace? I think that I only have 8 friends, so Johnseb it is.
21.) What is the last thing you ate?
Double Chocolate Milano cookie
22.) Who is your best friend of the opposite sex?
Jakie (duh...)
23.) Who last IMed you?
My Dad. Before that, Salwass.
24.) Are you on any medication?
nothing
25.) What side of the bed do you sleep on?
the left side
26.) What color shirt are you wearing
Red
27) what color is your razor?
Pink
28.) What is your favorite frozen treat?
Dove Raspberry and Chocolate chunk ice cream
29.) How many tattoos/piercing do you have?
piercings: 2 (4 healed over: nose, top of ear, second holes in each ear)
tattos: none
30.) What\'re your favorite stores?
Express, Vicky's
31.) Are you thirsty right now?
Yes.
32.) Can you imagine yourself ever getting married?
I COULD do it again
33.) Who\'s someone you haven\'t seen in a while and miss?
James (not Yardley) and Alan
34.) What did you do last night?
Sat around and cross stitched, watched TV
35.) Do you care what people think about you?
Yes, especially when I feel like they don't think that I am capable of stuff
36.) Have you ever done something to instigate trouble?
Yes...
37) Do you like your nose?
Yep
38.) What color is your bedroom?
White. Stupid apartment
39.) When was the last time you worked out?
Went to the fitness center last night
41.) Do you like pedicures?
Yes! They are great, especially when you go barefoot a lot
42.) Where do you live?
Wauwatosa (TOSA), WI
43.) Are you an aggressive driver?
damn right
44.) Who is your cell phone carrier?
My purse? Or Sprint?
45.) Do you like the person who posted this last?
Mary Heiman is my favorite ever. Go horn players!
46.) Do you know their Birthday?
Yes, June-ish.
47.) What is the thing you\'d want to change most about yourself?
Fit into my clothes again
48.) What color is your car?
Dark Green
49.) What do you smell like right now?
Cats...maybe? Me.
50.) What is your favorite color?
blue and purple
51.) Do you like mustard?
YES!!! Love mustard!
52.)What do you tell yourself when times get hard?
It can never be as bad as the year in River Falls...
53.)Would you ever sky dive?
Nah.
54.)What do you sleep on?
Bed...
55.)What character from a movie/TV most reminds you of yourself?
I can't think of anything.
56.)Have you ever bid for something on ebay?
Yes, unfortunately. If I could take it all back, I would have close to $5000.
57.) What do you think of Angelina Jolie being pregnant?
Who the fuck cares? And, I sort of wish that was me.
58.)Do you enjoy giving hugs?
Yes. And now, I'm going to hug Mary whenever I see her.
59.)Would you consider yourself to be fashionable?
Nope.
60.)Do you own a digital camera?
Yes.
61.)What celebrities have you been compared to?
None
62.)Who is your favorite Star Wars character?
Leia
63.)Does it annoy you when someone says they\'ll call but never do?
Yes, but I accept it as the way things are.
64.)What books, if any, have made you cry?
Mostly about animals...
65.) what the fuck?
ummmm....what?
66.) Are you a jealous person?
occassionally
67.)Do you ever feel guilty after eating meat?
Nope
68.)If you were born the opposite sex, what would your name be?
Dad really wanted Merlin. They settled on Doug.

Saturday, September 23, 2006

Stuff'N'Things

I really like the new Macbook. The keyboard is really sweet.

I'm better. In Green Bay right now, watching stupid shit on TV and waiting for Josh and Jake to come home from the bachelor party they are at. I'm tired and if they aren't home by midnight (it's 11:40 right now), I will just go to bed. We're only here for the night.

Work is still boring, but I may have made some excellent connections through SAI. The VP-membership is the Artistic Manager for the MSO (and she's like 30ish), and so when I was introducing myself in an email, I just said that she worked where I would love to work, because that's the kind of thing that I would say. She said that she got emails all the time of openings in the area, and so I told her that if she sees anything in finance or developement, that I would totally be interested.

I got my scores back from the GMAT people. Scored a 580 out of 800 (which is really pretty good) on the verbal/quantitative sections and a 6 out of 6 on the written portion. So, I hope that's enough for me to get into school there. When they get my scores, my application is complete, so hopefully they can make a quick decision. Cross your fingers.

Back to SAI...anyway, so I'm hoping that that is a good connection there, as well as some of the connections that I have made for playing opportunities. Anything would be excellent right now. Seems like there is no shortage of french horns around these parts.

I felt better that night at home, after I posted. We talked. We always do. I really have been trying not to bottle everything up anymore. I remember where that got me. Well, it didn't end up badly, but it definitely wasn't a happy place. I still have a couple of things from that time period that I'm not too happy with myself about, but they can't be changed now. They are what they are.

We watched 48 Hours on CBS tonight, where they had a story about this girl who went on a cruise ship with her recovering boyfriend and a bunch of friends and ended up dying of a methadone overdose and nobody will say what really happened, even though I thought it was obvious that the girl forgot that her dumbass boyfriend put his methadone in a Nyquill bottle and smuggled it on board and took some of it to sleep. But, there are unanswered questions and such, so...

The more important thing was that this whole thing took place 24 hours before the bus accident. I don't know if it was the full moon and all the planets were aligned that weekend or what, but it seems to me that a LOT of crazy ass fucked up shit went down that weekend, for everyone on the earth. Lots of people making fucking stupid decisions and other people paying the price. It was very strange. Just to hear that it had been a year -- where's the national story on the bus accident? Where's the story about the APPALLING fact that this asshole dumps his truck over, kills a bunch of people and then says that he's innocent of the crimes, because of some other BS. Any person who was human would have settled a long time ago and confessed. I understand that the day in court wouldn't have happened then, but to say that he didn't really do anything (which is what innocent means to me), is just, inhuman. I consider him a monster with no soul and I get a creepy feeling looking at him.

Well, anyway. I don't know why I said all that. He should be on "To Catch A Predator" on Dateline.

Okay, prolly time for bed. It's almost midnight and they aren't back.

Good night!

Thursday, September 21, 2006

I think that I watched too much sad TV tonight...

I'm just sad tonight. Well, that and having stupid fights with Jake that don't make sense and don't matter, but I don't think that we will ever shake that first year of marriage. It seems like no matter what I do or say, things will never be right. I can't make a mistake or everything gets all fucked up. So, I will continue to ruin good days because I say one thing wrong.

The month is coming and it's not slowing down. I don't really know what to think. I know that I will enjoy it (birthdays and things and such), but I just...I don't know. And I'm not like, that involved. I guess I'm too empathetic.

I think the lack of sunlight is making me more tired and sadder than usual too. AND AND AND! and, the fact that I really do not like working where I am. I cannot tell you what a difference it makes. When you want to be going somewhere and you don't mind getting up in the morning and going, versus having to drag yourself out of bed and sit there all day and try and entertain yourself is just...ugh. I need more entertainment. Plus, I hate having to drive, even if it's only 20 minutes and out in the country mostly.

I'm really out of things to say at this point. I think that I'll post when I'm in a better mood and actually feel like saying good things about my life.

Sunday, September 17, 2006

Rest of Weekend Update

Well, I can tell that I was hung over yesterday in my other post, because it's all disjointed and doesn't really make sense.

I was hung over all day yesterday. Headache all day. Well, to be honest, I had cramps yesterday too, so the ibuprofen was doing double duty and the cramps came first, which is okay with me. Went for lunch at Olive Garden -- which was delicious -- and just hung out all -- went to hear the Marchy march band at the International Fall Festival, and they were really good. some of the trumpet players in the band are arrogant little pricks, but the rest of the kids are just there for a good time, you know. And it sounded great. The DMs looked great too.

Went golfing with Jake and Nims -- didn't do well. I was really tired and couldn't really focus on my proper hitting techniques and shit. So, I was topping a lot of balls.

Just hung out the rest of the night, built a fire and hung out at Hastings. Nims was WASTED!!! and he tapped out about 10:30. I didn't drink, but I did listen to a lot of funny stories and stuff -- like the one about where I was so drunk at Joy of Hastings -- you remember -- and I told Keith's woman that she should never get married ever. And then Keith proposed to her. oops. If he wants, I'll take it back. I was SO depressed and SO drunk. Now I just feel like a jerk. A lot. Oh well. Shit happens.

Went to bed and woke up today. Nims is totally sweet. wow.

Well, I'm out. Until later.

Saturday, September 16, 2006

Mid-Weekend Update

So, the memorial service/funeral was short, which was good, but I got sad when Jake's cousin, who is about 17 or 18 was upset, because I remember how I felt when my grandparents passed away at that age...

So, we ate lunch at Ponderosa, which was okay, hung out in Pulaski for a couple hours with Jake's parents and then drove to the EAU C!!!! Got there around 6:45 and sat at Hastings for a while, then drove up to Chippewa Falls for Oktoberfest, where I ate the "Intimidator" a 1/3# hot dog (and don't let anyone tell you differently: I found it first) AND these totally amazing sweet potato fries. Soooooo good!

Drank a little beer up there, drove back to Hastings 3.0, grabbed Nims and walked over to the Beaver Lodge for the Oktoberfest party there. It was fun -- I was having a good time. Too loud and WAY TOO MANY PEOPLE THAT I DIDN'T KNOW!!! But, saw Ben HD, Keith, Josh, Justin, Laura, Mary Heiman, Errin, Hayley, lots of people that I DID know and most importantly: JOHNSEB!!!!!

We hung the rest of the night, after Jakie and Nimbies left to go sleep; Justina drove me back to Hastings at 2:30, when they were on the way to Perkins. I was pretty drunk. I got the spins a little when I laid down.

It was good to see her and talk about stuff and things again. I missed her A LOT!!! The ONE thing that I miss is being so close and being able to be here more. Oh well. Things happen. It was fun just to talk about everything again.

We went to Olive Garden for lunch, which was AMAZING! Linguini with alfredo and soup and stuffed mushrooms! So delicious.

We're hanging out now. It's 2:15. I really want to go golfing, but I just am feeling that we're not going to go. I guess we can go after the marchy march band plays. at like 4:30. I'll just make us go straight away after we are done with watching them. Unless it's totally lame and then whatev.

Anyway, that's all for now...more coming as it happens.

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

I wish that I knew what triggered these...

For the first time in a very long time, I dreamt about Branden again.

Another weird one where everyone knew that he had passed away, but he was still there in the room anyway. And nobody really minded. Of course. I just remember being so upset that I couldn't talk to him, which most people were doing...someone was talking to him, but now I don't remember who, but it was when I noticed that he was there in the room.

There was a musi hist test going on, which I didn't have to take. Let me tell ya, there was a whole lot of crazy jumping around from situation to situation in this one.

I want to say it was James talking to him, but I'm not totally sure.

But, anyway, I was so upset about it that I knew if I talked to him I would just burst out crying, but Andrea forced me to talk to him by announcing something to the entire room about how much she loved him, I think.

I remember fighting going over to talk to him and being kind of angry with Andrea for focusing the room over on where we were. (GOSH, this sounds selfish)When did go talk to him, all I could do was hug him and I burst out crying. All I could say was "why did it have to be you?" After that, we communicated by writing in red felt tipped marker pen on an old typewriter. I don't know why I couldn't just speak to him, like everyone else was doing, but since I only remember one person talking to him, maybe that person was different. But, I just kept crying. And then I woke up and I still don't know if I was crying in my sleep or I started right after I woke up, but I was really upset.

But, I am convinced that this one was probably my brain scrunching things together over the past couple weeks of people (and animals) that have passed away.

the more I think about it, the more I am convinced that he was sitting next to James and talking with him. at least before I went over by him.

I don't dream about him too often, and I hate dreaming about it in a way that makes me seem more important than I was in his world, but when I do, I have to write it all down or I just feel weird the whole day.

I wasn't planning on another post, but here it is anyway. I guess I just miss him. Or I miss Andrea. or both. or junkyard. Can't wait to see everyone on Friday. :)

On a completely unrelated note to above: Did anyone see those "webisodes" from BSG on scifi.com? I think G.nate wrote about them. They are kind of cool. I love that show. I really wish that we could get cable before they start again. But, I would want to get digital cable to get BBC America too. Maybe I'll just order it and money be damned. You can't take it with you anyway.

End Communication

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

So, I can write about these things now...

The Heyers had to have Kirby put down a week ago. It was pretty sad, but he was really sick too, so it's good that he doesn't have to try and exist with non-functioning kidneys. And then, Grandpa B (Jake's grandpa) passed away yesterday, BUT, he was REALLY REALLY sick, so it's good that he doesn't have to suffer anymore as well.

The memorial service is on Friday in the morning and Kristine can't make it, Jack won't be back, Brooke can't fly home in time, and Grandma Judy is in Vietnam right now. For those of you who know anything about the situation, I will give you three guesses as to who set up said service. I understand that her husband just passed away, but half of his family and grandchildren (who knew him MUCH MUCH longer than you!) can't be there, you're being ridiculous and selfish.

Grrrrrr....

It really makes me angry to think about. So I won't.

But, I have to ask off of work on Friday, which I don't think will be a problem, and hopefully, it won't be a problem for Jake. We'll probably need a drink by Friday night. And a Nims.

Just a boring week around here. Actually have been busy at work and been working to my regular time of 6pm. Even stayed until 6:15 tonight, but that was because Marge called me and I talked to her between 5 and 6. I wanted to finish what I was working on. So, at least I've had enough to keep me busy. I think that if the owner buys another office, like he was planning on doing, it will be enough to keep me busy during the day, every day. So, I hope that it happens.

The cats are as annoying as ever. We don't sleep very well early in the AM and I keep having to come out and sleep in the living room, so Jake can keep sleeping. So annoying. I'm not really sure how to keep them from bugging me in the AM. Feeding them really does nothing.

I miss people. I'm glad to be seeing everyone this weekend, even if I am not feeling incredibly social this weekend. It's tough working full time. :)

I DO hope that I get into grad school...I know that it will make me more busy, but my job is not so hard that I can't handle it. I've decided that if I don't make it in UWM, I will try UW-Whitewater. They have a program as well.


Well, I guess that's all for this week. Just a different week this week. I wish that I would have had the gumption to finish cleaning up the back room during the summer, I'll have to do it the weekend of the 22nd. Jake will be in Green Bay for a Bachelor Party that weekend, so I'll be here by my lonesome on Saturday and Sunday prolly. Maybe I'll run away. :)

Until later...

Saturday, September 09, 2006

Graduate Management Admissions Test

That's what GMAT stands for. I could never remember the M part.

Done and done. And I mean, done.

Got a 580. Did better than 64% of the people taking the test, supposedly. My writing sections were pretty good too, I think and I even managed to slip a music reference into one of them. Of course, while I was coming back from a break, I looked at the guy the to me's computer and he of course has an essay question about government and the arts...of course! Who wants a question like that? grr...that would have been perf.

I did really well on the math stuff and better that I thought that I would on the verbal. That was just based on my practicing all week. At least it wasn't $250 down the drain. Unless I don't get accepted. And that would suck.

So, I'm stoked. Going to see the craptacular Brewers play at County Stadium...I mean, Miller Park tonight with the mom and pop. and the husband, of course. Just a nice relaxing weekend.

I'm looking forward to football starting again, but probably not to the crappy season the Packers are going to have again this year....oh well. If 600 million people on their team don't get hurt this year, like last, I'm cool.

I NEED FOOD!!!!

Thursday, September 07, 2006

NEW PHONE NUMBER!!!

I went over to Sprint today and I got converted to a 414 number. No more LD for the people down here. YEA!!!

Anyway, if you want me to call you so you can save my number, let me know by leaving a message. If you're friends with me in the Stalkerbook, I mean, Facebook, I put it on my profile for my friends. So, there yah go.

I called my speed dials, but beyond that I'm lazy.

Went to dinner with the pop-pop tonight too -- Chili's was amazing. I'm WAY too full. Definitely need to start running or regular exercise. Going back to the pilates every other day should be my goal.

BAH!

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

What a week!

Saint Louis was great. Maggie has a great house, but I've dubbed her street "Ghetto Way" instead of it's real name because it's down a hill and reminds me a little bit of some of the houses in the Eau C ghetto area. It was nice to see her and Ryan and the kitty! I have pictures. I just have to get them off my camera.

The drive was kind of long. But, it was worth it. I'm hopeful that we can get more time off where we can spend a longer time down there. We'll see. It will probably be difficult. We ate a Maggiano's for dinner on Sunday, which was okay. It wasn't that great, but we did have a $25 GC, so that was good. I'd like to try it with just ordering regular off the menu. Just hung out mostly. Maggie and I spent a couple hours trying to catch a stray cat and her two kittens, but we couldn't do it. The momma cat was really nice and easy to catch, but the kittens were more skiterish.

It was a fun time all around.

Got back to work yesterday and had to work the whole day! GUH! Well, I worked until 4, then packed everything up to move out to Hartland to work out there now. We have SO much more space out there, so I'm very glad that we moved. We each have our own space and I'm going to decorate mine all pretty. With what, I don't know, but I'll do it. The drive is longer, of course, but I'm glad we have a bigger space.

I am working full time now, so that will be good. More money and such.

This Saturday I have to take the GMAT for admissions to UWM for the Accounting Masters program. I also contacted the Wilson Center for the Arts in Brookfield, because they have a couple positions open there that I am interested in. I just really have no future at Realty Execs now. I can see that. I don't mind working there, but there is really going to be no opportunity for me to advance and like, run the accounting department or something like that. But, it's probably worth it to try to stay until I'm really done with school.

Well, I'm off to start some wash so I have clothes to wear this week and weekend AND to do some more studying for the GMAT. My biggest weakness right now is Math and reasoning like that. Reading and sentences and Verbal I don't have a major problem with, but I do need to just focus for the rest of the week on that. I'm not wasting $250.

Wish me Luck!

Saturday, September 02, 2006

Funeral

This was in the Detroit Lakes Newspaper website. I'd link to the story, but you have to register to read it or something. I hadn't heard anything, so I didn't know if anyone was aware or not.


Kelly Heyer, 27, of Detroit Lakes, died Sunday, August 27, 2006 in an airplane crash in Lexington, Ky. Funeral services were scheduled for 11 a.m. Wednesday, Sept. 6 at First Lutheran Church in Detroit Lakes. The David-Donehower Funeral Home in Detroit Lakes is serving the family.


Thinking of you all...Have a great Labor Day weekend!


Love,

Ange