Do I have the patience for this?

I'm starting to question whether or not I have the energy/committment/patience to work full time and go to school. See, what I liked about St. Mary's was that I could take one class at a time. I didn't have to take two for 16 weeks -- one was 6 and the other was 8...or something like that.

I'm so exhausted by the end of the week and of course, the class that I am really needing to pay attention in and get a good grade and UNDERSTAND everything in is the one that I have no more energy to sit through. Plus, the way that she teaches and has us do the homework, etc., is the exact opposite of how I learn. So, it's like extra frustrating for me. Maybe I'm just having a bad week. I'm on track with my other class, so I'm just thinking that I just need to sit and study more over this weekend -- I didn't get to do anything on Saturday/Sunday/Monday this weekend, because we were out of town.

Le sigh. It's not a good start.

But, I think that I'm just having a bad week. I think that once I get past the makeup work that I have to do and sit and study up the basic chapters from the first month of class, things will be a little smoother for me. But, I do have a test next week, plus homework due, so it's never ending. Blah.

I have decided to start getting out at noon time and walk around the lake at work -- it's good for me. To walk and to get out of the office for a half hour.

Okay, I have to register for a run and then it's back to work. I just needed to vent a bit. I feel better.

Better is Peace

Last night, Jake and I played in a concert with the Menomonee Falls SO and the St. Seb's and Milwaukee Archdioese choirs. We performed "The Armed Man" by Karl Jenkins. DESPITE most of it being a Marcone/Yo-yo Ma rip off (like, worse than John Williams), it was a pretty good work. I had fun. My playing is better. Maybe I'll start to work on horn a little more.

Today, I had an eye doc appt and I had to get dilated. I'm still all fucked up. And my eyes hurt. But, I can get sweet new glasses. Too bad that I didn't like any of the ones at the doctor's office -- I'll have to go somewhere else now.

More class tomorrow night. I don't know if I'm looking forward to it or not. I have to buy my book finally tomorrow and I have to (probably) do battle to get my money back from the seller at half.com. Guh.

I also have to do the remedial accounting work for my Thursday class. That will be okay -- but I should have just said that I would do it right away and never minded the test from last week. Oh well. I hope that class moves faster (both of them!) this week. We got through just ONE chapter in both classes (one each). Too slow...

Anyway, going to EC this weekend. It should be good. Oktoberfest and all that stuff. And I have Monday off, so I can just take most of the day to chill out. Finally. I haven't had a real day off in a very long time -- most of the time I am off, we are going somewhere else.

Well, off to finish my laundry -- sorry that I'm not more interesting. :)

Some kind of week

It has truly been a crazy week. Maybe not a crazy as some had this week, but it was more than enough to be going on with.

4 day week at work, which meant that Tuesday was super busy. Not fun. Some days I don't mind the grind and others...yuck.

Started classes at UWM this week -- which was okay, except for the fact that my book for one of them didn't come yet. another yuck.

Combined with other miscellaneous bad news from the week and I'm just...

Well, to say the very least about it, tonight has basically been random bouts of tears and general sadness.

I'm just trying to not think about things and stay cool...oh, and do wash.

It'll be okay.

I'm making it official

I'm under the big number. And I did it by the end of August. Basically. When you are busy doing other things, like having hobbies or reading or sewing or fixing your upstairs, you don't eat things. And then you lose the 40 pounds you gained in the past 5 years. But, I should say that I've only lost 10 pounds(ish) so far. 30 to go. But, that's just numbers. How I feel is more important. I've definitely had more energy since the 10 lbs have gone.


Hooray!


G.Nate is around (and by around, I mean that he is sleeping here for the weekend in a basic sense), but I haven't seen him since 9:15 this morning. So, hopefully, he found a place to live and is still alive.

Jake should be home from work pretty soon.

I have been working on my upstairs today, since it is essentially my room. It needs to be re-insulated rather badly, because I can feel the heat POURING in from above. It's yucky. I painted a bit more and I should probably paint more, because I basically just want to be done with the upstairs, so I can finish moving boxes around already and then actually start sewing things again -- I have many projects that I have started and I would like to finish them. And then start new ones. :)

I got my refund from UWM yesterday in the mail. I deposited it in the bank and UWM draws from US Bank, so my funds were immediately available to me. It is the only semester that I plan on taking my total amount that I am offered. But, it is good -- pays off all the cards and pays for Florida in January. I know that I have to pay it back when I am done with school (and I think that this will be it), but, at least the interest rates are not ridiculous. I'm also hanging on to some of the amount, in case school all of a sudden comes back at me and says, you weren't supposed to get that much, BUT, it DID disperse, so I think that I'm okay.

I really should study for my first Thursday class. I guess we have a comprehension test on the first day, which actually counts toward the grade. It's basically stuff that we should know already by heart, but it never hurts to review. It can take a while to get back in the swing of things.

The rest of my year is going to be very busy...I have rehearsals for the MFSO on mondays, and class wednesdays and thursdays. And, that's okay.

Well, off to do other stuff and wonder where Jake is.