So, my HSG was rescheduled for April 27th at 9am; my doctor will actually be there to do the procedure this time. It's the way the rest of the hospitals do this sort of thing. So, he'll be there to shove dye up in me while the radiologist takes a pic. Fun times.
However...
My monitor that I spend mucho dollars on worked as designed. Based on the two peak days I got, I am almost thinking that we have been mistiming this whole business for this whole time. We shall see though. We nailed this month, so if I don't get preggers this time, then I really do feel like there is something else going on.
So, this is sort of like when I was pregnant with Ryan; they will probably give me one due date, but I will know it's slightly later.
I would say that it will be two weeks, but I know that I will test sooner and usually by 10 or 11 days after, if I have negative tests, I assume not preggo.
Historically, that is a pretty solid assumption for me.
I'll keep you posted. :)
Saturday, April 09, 2011
Wednesday, April 06, 2011
Painfully Painful
You'd think, from the title, that this post is about my HSG that I wasn't having on Friday. But, it's not. Because I didn't have it done. The receptionist spelled it out for the schedulers at West Allis Memorial, but they still didn't get it. So, when I was ready and Radiology was ready, they didn't realize that my doctor was not doing the procedure. So, they sent me home, because nobody could do it. And it was the last possible day that it could have been done.
So...I will have to wait until next month. Unless I am preggers. Then, I will not need it.
Sigh
I don't blame the hospital or my doctor. I blame Humana for cock blocking the entire Wheaton Franciscan hospital network out of their insurance. I am thinking of writing letters to Humana every day and starting a drive for everyone in the greater SE WI area to do the same. It is RIDICULOUS that Humana is carried by some of the area's biggest employers and we can't use one of the biggest hospital networks in the area, all because they don't want to let us. Because they can "be selective/exclusive/whatever/junkyard". If I could have gone to Elmbrook, I think this would have been done last Wednesday and I wouldn't have wasted ANOTHER month.
Anyway, in theory, my EDD would be Dec 25th. Let's all hope for a Christmas Miracle. I am undecided if I will just say something right away on here or not. I probably will. I'll have to blog it. haha Like always. Or, I'll just keep the secret one and open it at 12 weeks.
Well, frankly, if I get sick like I did with Ryan boy, I will admit it right away, because I will assume the best. I'm optimistic like that.
Ryan recovered from the ear infection nicely. I think that the meds really make his tummy hurt though. He's not the same until they are finished. So, now we have a happy, fun little boy back. Too bad Mom and Dad aren't as happy and fun loving right now. We were both very, very cranky today.
So, we ditched AT&T U-Verse for Netflix and the internet, saving about $90 a month. It's sort of boring, but I will probably get more sewing done. I have many stockings to produce. I'm 60% done with Jameson's and then there's Will. Maybe I will be done by Christmas. I have high hopes to be done with Jameson's by the end of May. We shall see.
But, in the likely event that we will have to pay monthly for a "new" car to replace my rapidly aging Camry, this will free up some money. Plus, there is TONS of stuff for Ryan to watch, since he loves to watch shows back to back to back.
So, long story short: HSG around April 27 or 28, unless there is a BFP around April 17.
Let's cross our fingers for the latter. I'd rather not have to have the former done. :)
So...I will have to wait until next month. Unless I am preggers. Then, I will not need it.
Sigh
I don't blame the hospital or my doctor. I blame Humana for cock blocking the entire Wheaton Franciscan hospital network out of their insurance. I am thinking of writing letters to Humana every day and starting a drive for everyone in the greater SE WI area to do the same. It is RIDICULOUS that Humana is carried by some of the area's biggest employers and we can't use one of the biggest hospital networks in the area, all because they don't want to let us. Because they can "be selective/exclusive/whatever/junkyard". If I could have gone to Elmbrook, I think this would have been done last Wednesday and I wouldn't have wasted ANOTHER month.
Anyway, in theory, my EDD would be Dec 25th. Let's all hope for a Christmas Miracle. I am undecided if I will just say something right away on here or not. I probably will. I'll have to blog it. haha Like always. Or, I'll just keep the secret one and open it at 12 weeks.
Well, frankly, if I get sick like I did with Ryan boy, I will admit it right away, because I will assume the best. I'm optimistic like that.
Ryan recovered from the ear infection nicely. I think that the meds really make his tummy hurt though. He's not the same until they are finished. So, now we have a happy, fun little boy back. Too bad Mom and Dad aren't as happy and fun loving right now. We were both very, very cranky today.
So, we ditched AT&T U-Verse for Netflix and the internet, saving about $90 a month. It's sort of boring, but I will probably get more sewing done. I have many stockings to produce. I'm 60% done with Jameson's and then there's Will. Maybe I will be done by Christmas. I have high hopes to be done with Jameson's by the end of May. We shall see.
But, in the likely event that we will have to pay monthly for a "new" car to replace my rapidly aging Camry, this will free up some money. Plus, there is TONS of stuff for Ryan to watch, since he loves to watch shows back to back to back.
So, long story short: HSG around April 27 or 28, unless there is a BFP around April 17.
Let's cross our fingers for the latter. I'd rather not have to have the former done. :)
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Secondary
Why it's secondary, I don't know. But, that's what we're calling it. Just to term it differently than those with primary, I guess.
For all the stories of others that I read, I figured that I still had 6 months to keep trying. But, my doctor doesn't like to screw around, I guess. So, we are proceeding with some testing. Test #1: Hysterosalpingogram (HSG). On Friday. April Fools Day.
Coincidentally: My Dad's 60th Birthday
At least I get a half a day at work.
The most promising thing is this: I have read an ass ton of stories (their anecdotal qualities notwithstanding) about women who get pregnant the same cycle as their HSG. So, I have everything crossed for this promise. Because that would put me due on Dec 26th, which would still be this year. And on Jan 1, I can stop paying for the hugely expensive insurance. And have normal paychecks again.
It is a different path than I thought we would have, but that's ok. I was figuring we would have some extra drugs and some more trying on our own. But, as always, I am ok with that. The only thing that is tough is that my doc does most of his work at Elmbrook Memorial (where I had Ryan boy), but that hospital is not on my insurance anymore...so...West Allis Memorial it is. I really want to stay with him, but I am starting to think that it might just be easier to find a doctor in network that's at West Allis Memorial. I assume that if I just go to a doc at the hospital, I would have easier access to ultrasounds and appts all at the same time, you know? We'll see how the HSG goes and go from there. I do like my doctor and I LOVE that he's not messing around with this, but at the same time, I am all about simplicity and streamlining the process.
or to put it another way: Humana sucks.
My hope is that everything is clear and this procedure clears out my tubes, so maybe we have a chance for the next couple of months.
I'm crossing everything.
For all the stories of others that I read, I figured that I still had 6 months to keep trying. But, my doctor doesn't like to screw around, I guess. So, we are proceeding with some testing. Test #1: Hysterosalpingogram (HSG). On Friday. April Fools Day.
Coincidentally: My Dad's 60th Birthday
At least I get a half a day at work.
The most promising thing is this: I have read an ass ton of stories (their anecdotal qualities notwithstanding) about women who get pregnant the same cycle as their HSG. So, I have everything crossed for this promise. Because that would put me due on Dec 26th, which would still be this year. And on Jan 1, I can stop paying for the hugely expensive insurance. And have normal paychecks again.
It is a different path than I thought we would have, but that's ok. I was figuring we would have some extra drugs and some more trying on our own. But, as always, I am ok with that. The only thing that is tough is that my doc does most of his work at Elmbrook Memorial (where I had Ryan boy), but that hospital is not on my insurance anymore...so...West Allis Memorial it is. I really want to stay with him, but I am starting to think that it might just be easier to find a doctor in network that's at West Allis Memorial. I assume that if I just go to a doc at the hospital, I would have easier access to ultrasounds and appts all at the same time, you know? We'll see how the HSG goes and go from there. I do like my doctor and I LOVE that he's not messing around with this, but at the same time, I am all about simplicity and streamlining the process.
or to put it another way: Humana sucks.
My hope is that everything is clear and this procedure clears out my tubes, so maybe we have a chance for the next couple of months.
I'm crossing everything.
Thursday, March 24, 2011
The Biggest Question of All
Honestly: How do I stop following my own blog? Do I really need to know in my Google Reader that I made an update?
I should have looked how long it's been since the last post. Probably a month, because I think my last post was about Zoloft and how awesome it is and if you are still acting unnaturally 4-6 months after birth, you should probably ask a doctor about it.
I write for two reasons today. Reason the first: We are currently living through the 3 ear infection in 4 months. Double one this time. I'm learning the signs very quickly though. His start with a simple cold, which suddenly gets worse and includes a wet cough. Then, fever. Ugh. And something new: Eyes get red. that's the telltale sign for Ryan. His eyes start to turn red -- it's not pink eye, when it's like YIKES! But, it's just very subtle. So, back onto Cefdinir for 10 days, 1 tsp in the morning and 1 tsp at night. Well, breakfast and dinner.
The poor little guy was up so early this morning that he's been in his bed sleeping on and off since noon and it's almost 4. I figure -- 2 hours missed this morning, plus 2 hour regular nap.
I hope he's better when he gets up, because Grandma is coming over to watch him tonight for a couple hours, which brings us to reason the second:
I have a consult with my OBGYN at 5:45pm tonight and Jake is going with. 6 months have passed and I am not pregnant (nor have I gotten pregnant). So, I called, thinking that I could just talk to the doctor about everything, but they made me come in. I'm not totally certain of what will be discussed, but I will say that the last time I had a consult with this doctor, I found myself pregnant quite soon afterward and that pregnancy is the one with the ear infections. So, maybe this will be a good idea, just from a fate perspective. But, my cycles have been a little wonky recently and I want to discuss taking Prometrium in the back half of my cycle, after ovulation, because I have a history of low progesterone. I took it with the last to pregnancies, and while one was doomed from the start, Ryan is here and just the sweetest little boy ever.
I also spent some big bucks on a Clearblue Easy Fertility Monitor, to tell me with a higher degree of accuracy when the best time to...you know. haha; I'd rather know what's coming that realizing it after the fact that you're too late. Which is coming from UPS today. And since I don't want to miss it, I couldn't take a four hour nap with Ryan. Which I REALLY could have used.
And the circle of events is complete.
And then I found 5 dollars.
I should have looked how long it's been since the last post. Probably a month, because I think my last post was about Zoloft and how awesome it is and if you are still acting unnaturally 4-6 months after birth, you should probably ask a doctor about it.
I write for two reasons today. Reason the first: We are currently living through the 3 ear infection in 4 months. Double one this time. I'm learning the signs very quickly though. His start with a simple cold, which suddenly gets worse and includes a wet cough. Then, fever. Ugh. And something new: Eyes get red. that's the telltale sign for Ryan. His eyes start to turn red -- it's not pink eye, when it's like YIKES! But, it's just very subtle. So, back onto Cefdinir for 10 days, 1 tsp in the morning and 1 tsp at night. Well, breakfast and dinner.
The poor little guy was up so early this morning that he's been in his bed sleeping on and off since noon and it's almost 4. I figure -- 2 hours missed this morning, plus 2 hour regular nap.
I hope he's better when he gets up, because Grandma is coming over to watch him tonight for a couple hours, which brings us to reason the second:
I have a consult with my OBGYN at 5:45pm tonight and Jake is going with. 6 months have passed and I am not pregnant (nor have I gotten pregnant). So, I called, thinking that I could just talk to the doctor about everything, but they made me come in. I'm not totally certain of what will be discussed, but I will say that the last time I had a consult with this doctor, I found myself pregnant quite soon afterward and that pregnancy is the one with the ear infections. So, maybe this will be a good idea, just from a fate perspective. But, my cycles have been a little wonky recently and I want to discuss taking Prometrium in the back half of my cycle, after ovulation, because I have a history of low progesterone. I took it with the last to pregnancies, and while one was doomed from the start, Ryan is here and just the sweetest little boy ever.
I also spent some big bucks on a Clearblue Easy Fertility Monitor, to tell me with a higher degree of accuracy when the best time to...you know. haha; I'd rather know what's coming that realizing it after the fact that you're too late. Which is coming from UPS today. And since I don't want to miss it, I couldn't take a four hour nap with Ryan. Which I REALLY could have used.
And the circle of events is complete.
And then I found 5 dollars.
Monday, February 28, 2011
The Magic of the SSRI
It really does work for me. I'm on a low dose and it's been much, much easier to deal with life in general. Laundry is not so daunting. I don't feel like choking people at work or at home anymore. And trust me, that was at least an every other day thought for a while. Coping with life is much easier. And I feel like I can smile again. I never realized how bad it was until my friend who took another job at my company came back to visit me and have lunch and I could barely muster up the excitement to see her again. I was broken. Very, very broken.
Now? Much better. Bonus side effect: Appetite suppressant. I guess it could be taken as nausea, but I just find myself not needing to eat so much to feel normal or happy or whatever. So, I continue to lose weight. I have lost 14 pounds since September and approx. 20 lbs since last year at this time. I weighed in at 210 this morning and I had topped out around 231 right after the holidays in 2010. And since I have the weight to lose, I don't mind. I'm kind of hoping that I can get back to where I was in college, which was 175. Seems far away that I could get there, but I've lost 15 in the past 6 months, so who's to say I can't keep going?
So, I am happy with both items. I feel normal again and I'm losing the last of the Ryan weight.
On the baby front, that has been a chore at best. Gravida: 3; Para: 1 I'm aiming for Gravida: 4; Para: 2 (heck, let's be bold and aim for Gravida: 4; Para: 3! Haha!). Frankly, in my book of life, one more miscarriage and I will term it RPL and call Ryan a fluke. So, wish us luck in March. I could handle a Thanksgiving baby.
Now? Much better. Bonus side effect: Appetite suppressant. I guess it could be taken as nausea, but I just find myself not needing to eat so much to feel normal or happy or whatever. So, I continue to lose weight. I have lost 14 pounds since September and approx. 20 lbs since last year at this time. I weighed in at 210 this morning and I had topped out around 231 right after the holidays in 2010. And since I have the weight to lose, I don't mind. I'm kind of hoping that I can get back to where I was in college, which was 175. Seems far away that I could get there, but I've lost 15 in the past 6 months, so who's to say I can't keep going?
So, I am happy with both items. I feel normal again and I'm losing the last of the Ryan weight.
On the baby front, that has been a chore at best. Gravida: 3; Para: 1 I'm aiming for Gravida: 4; Para: 2 (heck, let's be bold and aim for Gravida: 4; Para: 3! Haha!). Frankly, in my book of life, one more miscarriage and I will term it RPL and call Ryan a fluke. So, wish us luck in March. I could handle a Thanksgiving baby.
Friday, February 11, 2011
Reconsideration
So, what was a bad cold for Ryan turned into a second ear infection. His second in three months. He didn't have any for the first 18 months. Which is sort of strange, in its own way. But, it was just a bad cold and when I picked him up from daycare on Wednesday, his left eye was reddish, under the lid. Turns out, this is a sign of an ear infection. As in, the left ear is infected and the infection spread to his eye. Yuck!
So, we are on the good antibiotics now, since he's allergic to the cheap stuff. $30.00 for the 10 day dosage. Without insurance, this would cost $99.99. Woof! One dose and he's already doing WAY better. But, since the eye was included with the infection, he has to be on the drugs for 24 hours before he can go back to daycare. So, I have been home for two days with him, because I can get paid and if Jake doesn't work, he don't get paid.
Being home for the past two days has been fairly easy and made me realize that if I could stay home with him, or if I had to, for whatever reason, I could do it. I don't know if it's the Zoloft finally working it's magic, because I have said many, many times that I could NEVER stay home with him, because I would be so bored. But, with some rest and some deep thoughts, I know that I wouldn't have a problem with it. I could plan trips and projects and take "Mommy and Me" classes and I could, in theory, enroll him in programs that would get him out of the house and into someone else's hands for at least a couple of hours. And I just feel like the house would be better, cleaner and I would be saner. And I could always find something, at some point, that I could do part time. Or, I could go back to school, like I have been wanting to for a while.
So, maybe one of my new goals in the next couple of years is to get to a point where I can stay at home. Of course, by the time that that happens, he will be in school and it won't matter. But, I would like to be in a position to be home for him after school and to take him to school.
I guess it would take careful planning and all that before such a decision. And right now, it's just not feasible. But, maybe....just maybe. I have dreams! :)
So, we are on the good antibiotics now, since he's allergic to the cheap stuff. $30.00 for the 10 day dosage. Without insurance, this would cost $99.99. Woof! One dose and he's already doing WAY better. But, since the eye was included with the infection, he has to be on the drugs for 24 hours before he can go back to daycare. So, I have been home for two days with him, because I can get paid and if Jake doesn't work, he don't get paid.
Being home for the past two days has been fairly easy and made me realize that if I could stay home with him, or if I had to, for whatever reason, I could do it. I don't know if it's the Zoloft finally working it's magic, because I have said many, many times that I could NEVER stay home with him, because I would be so bored. But, with some rest and some deep thoughts, I know that I wouldn't have a problem with it. I could plan trips and projects and take "Mommy and Me" classes and I could, in theory, enroll him in programs that would get him out of the house and into someone else's hands for at least a couple of hours. And I just feel like the house would be better, cleaner and I would be saner. And I could always find something, at some point, that I could do part time. Or, I could go back to school, like I have been wanting to for a while.
So, maybe one of my new goals in the next couple of years is to get to a point where I can stay at home. Of course, by the time that that happens, he will be in school and it won't matter. But, I would like to be in a position to be home for him after school and to take him to school.
I guess it would take careful planning and all that before such a decision. And right now, it's just not feasible. But, maybe....just maybe. I have dreams! :)
Monday, February 07, 2011
Two weeks
It seems silly to say, but after two weeks of Zoloft, I can already tell the difference. Or maybe, in a way, knowing is the half the battle too.
But, I am far more relaxed than I was, even a week ago, even when I am losing sleep to Ryan illness. The tense, crazy episodes are much less. I'm not getting as upset as I was, which is awesome to me. And, I actually want to do things, instead of nothing. I mean, don't get me wrong, doing nothing is nice sometimes, but not when you have a bunch of laundry and things to do in the house and you have the energy to do: nothing.
The plague of illness continues at our house. I don't think there has been a time since Thanksgiving when someone hasn't had one thing or another. I was sick, then Ryan and Jake were sick, then I was sick again, then Ryan was sick again. And rinse and repeat. Ryan came down with a pretty good cold yesterday -- slight fever, cough, runny nose, watery eyes, the whole nine yards. I feel terrible for him. He went into his bed 15 mins early tonight and he didn't complain too much. I have a feeling I might be up and down tonight however, but that's ok. I will survive.
Yeah Packers! I'm still in that state of "I can't believe they won!". I don't know if it will ever go away. Sometimes, I still have strange reactions to things, so maybe this is just one of those things.
Not too much going on around here otherwise. Very even and quiet lately, which is very nice.
I am totally in love with the new style Fuzzi Bunz! I just bought 7 online and with 15% off, I basically got one for free, which is pretty sweet, if you ask me. I got a free one a couple of weeks back with a laundry detergent order and I tried it -- and it's awesome! The legs adjust and the waist is very adjustable and they are snaps, so they stay on Ryan's skinny butt overnight. I can't wait for my fluffy mail! :) Cloth diapers are the best thing ever, let me tell you. I know that it seems weird, but it is just so very, very easy. Well, it's as easy as you make it, you know?
I really need to sit down and evaluate all of my crafting projects. I have like 20 things in process, but most of them, I don't know what I am going to do with them when I am done. The next on my 'to-do' list are: Finishing Jameson's Christmas stocking, starting and finishing one for Will and starting one for my next child, if I have one this year before Christmas. I've really only got like two more tries this year and then we are into next year. Which is fine. Because then, it's a whole other year before I need to finish. And I can bump something else up in the list. But, I have just had so many ideas and plans and things that I really want to do, that it's hard to finish. Plus, with the boy, it's hard to sit and do anything -- when I have free time, I just want to relax.
Oh well. Such is life, right?
But, I am far more relaxed than I was, even a week ago, even when I am losing sleep to Ryan illness. The tense, crazy episodes are much less. I'm not getting as upset as I was, which is awesome to me. And, I actually want to do things, instead of nothing. I mean, don't get me wrong, doing nothing is nice sometimes, but not when you have a bunch of laundry and things to do in the house and you have the energy to do: nothing.
The plague of illness continues at our house. I don't think there has been a time since Thanksgiving when someone hasn't had one thing or another. I was sick, then Ryan and Jake were sick, then I was sick again, then Ryan was sick again. And rinse and repeat. Ryan came down with a pretty good cold yesterday -- slight fever, cough, runny nose, watery eyes, the whole nine yards. I feel terrible for him. He went into his bed 15 mins early tonight and he didn't complain too much. I have a feeling I might be up and down tonight however, but that's ok. I will survive.
Yeah Packers! I'm still in that state of "I can't believe they won!". I don't know if it will ever go away. Sometimes, I still have strange reactions to things, so maybe this is just one of those things.
Not too much going on around here otherwise. Very even and quiet lately, which is very nice.
I am totally in love with the new style Fuzzi Bunz! I just bought 7 online and with 15% off, I basically got one for free, which is pretty sweet, if you ask me. I got a free one a couple of weeks back with a laundry detergent order and I tried it -- and it's awesome! The legs adjust and the waist is very adjustable and they are snaps, so they stay on Ryan's skinny butt overnight. I can't wait for my fluffy mail! :) Cloth diapers are the best thing ever, let me tell you. I know that it seems weird, but it is just so very, very easy. Well, it's as easy as you make it, you know?
I really need to sit down and evaluate all of my crafting projects. I have like 20 things in process, but most of them, I don't know what I am going to do with them when I am done. The next on my 'to-do' list are: Finishing Jameson's Christmas stocking, starting and finishing one for Will and starting one for my next child, if I have one this year before Christmas. I've really only got like two more tries this year and then we are into next year. Which is fine. Because then, it's a whole other year before I need to finish. And I can bump something else up in the list. But, I have just had so many ideas and plans and things that I really want to do, that it's hard to finish. Plus, with the boy, it's hard to sit and do anything -- when I have free time, I just want to relax.
Oh well. Such is life, right?
Wednesday, February 02, 2011
DOOM!!!! (alternate title: Snow Day)
Snow day around these parts. I worked for about 3 hours this morning. Jake shoveled us out (see Facebook pics) and then took Ryan to daycare. She was open today, but he was the only one there. would rather not burn one of my 10 sick days on the SECOND day of their calendar year (which runs Feb 1 - Jan 31, to include all the holidays in one year). So, Ryan is at daycare with our lady and her two kids. They all love him, so I'm sure he's having a wonderful time.
We are being bums. It's sort of nice. I have some laundry to do and such things around the house, but we never get to sit around during the day Ryan free.
I thought maybe it wasn't as bad as the weathermen were saying this morning, until I saw a neighbor trying to get out of his driveway. I have never seen anyone plow their driveway with their RAV-4 (or whatever kind of SUV he had) until today, but it was pretty sweet. I guess the poor guy seized up his snowblower, because he forgot to put oil in! Duh! So, our neighbor with the huge snowblower went over and saved him.
I knew that my Toyota was doomed when I saw him driving in the road.
We'll survive.
Ryan must be on a growth spurt again, because he has been eating like a pig. Well, maybe more like a duck. Pigs chew their food. Dinner the other night was a hot dog, half a cup of broccoli, some mashed potatoes and an entire banana. Breakfast this morning was three pieces of string cheese and a banana and a half. Ridiculous. I'm sort of wondering what the food bills will be like when he is a teenager. Frightening.
We are being bums. It's sort of nice. I have some laundry to do and such things around the house, but we never get to sit around during the day Ryan free.
I thought maybe it wasn't as bad as the weathermen were saying this morning, until I saw a neighbor trying to get out of his driveway. I have never seen anyone plow their driveway with their RAV-4 (or whatever kind of SUV he had) until today, but it was pretty sweet. I guess the poor guy seized up his snowblower, because he forgot to put oil in! Duh! So, our neighbor with the huge snowblower went over and saved him.
I knew that my Toyota was doomed when I saw him driving in the road.
We'll survive.
Ryan must be on a growth spurt again, because he has been eating like a pig. Well, maybe more like a duck. Pigs chew their food. Dinner the other night was a hot dog, half a cup of broccoli, some mashed potatoes and an entire banana. Breakfast this morning was three pieces of string cheese and a banana and a half. Ridiculous. I'm sort of wondering what the food bills will be like when he is a teenager. Frightening.
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
The Return of The Crib
Aaaaaaand...
We're back in the crib. We put it together correctly now, so the mattress is on the very bottom position. He screamed for the first 15 mins and now he's sleeping. Like he did in the toddler bed too. So, no different there. I am hopeful that I will be sleeping all night tonight.
He needs to learn to put himself back to sleep -- he used to be able to do it. and then he would sleep from 7 to 7, almost every night. Now, we are going to bed late and getting up early to watch "Choo" (A Disney show called Chuggington). Ridiculous. We are trying to cut back on TV time, but I think it's going to be even more. I am done with the TV requests.
So, the next week or so will tell what happens with him. I hope to be sleeping again.
Also, today, I saw a new doctor. I really liked her -- she is just for general family doctor. I will still see by OBGYN too, for now. But, for months now, I have been having trouble dealing with life. I thought it was just stress or just being too busy or the holidays or whatever. But, it came to a point that I was easily irritable, and very, very angry and I could not control it. Well, I could control myself, but I couldn't stop the blood pressure rise and the RAGE. Pure anger. And it occurred to me that I have not just been feeling like this for a few months, but since Ryan was born. Which would make it Post Pardum Depression, PPD.
I felt really bad, because I was trying to be a little rational and tell the doctor how I had been feeling and all that, and instead, I just started to cry. I apologized and told her that I didn't want to unload on her, but here was how I've been feeling. And, I just don't feel like me. I feel wrong and backwards and a million other things. I have no energy to do normal things around the house, much less to do things that I actually enjoy, like sewing, cross stitching, etc. etc. etc.
So, she asked me all the standard depression questions and did do a physical exam. She is doing blood work on me, but said that she really thought it was PPD.
So, as of 1/26/11, I take Zoloft. I go back in one month to check out how I feel. I am hoping there is a difference. Because right now, I have been like this for so long, that I feel like this is normal -- I just don't know how I will be different.
But, I am hoping that I will enjoy my life again. Because right now, I definitely don't. I try, but I just don't have it. I'm hoping that I find it again.
We're back in the crib. We put it together correctly now, so the mattress is on the very bottom position. He screamed for the first 15 mins and now he's sleeping. Like he did in the toddler bed too. So, no different there. I am hopeful that I will be sleeping all night tonight.
He needs to learn to put himself back to sleep -- he used to be able to do it. and then he would sleep from 7 to 7, almost every night. Now, we are going to bed late and getting up early to watch "Choo" (A Disney show called Chuggington). Ridiculous. We are trying to cut back on TV time, but I think it's going to be even more. I am done with the TV requests.
So, the next week or so will tell what happens with him. I hope to be sleeping again.
Also, today, I saw a new doctor. I really liked her -- she is just for general family doctor. I will still see by OBGYN too, for now. But, for months now, I have been having trouble dealing with life. I thought it was just stress or just being too busy or the holidays or whatever. But, it came to a point that I was easily irritable, and very, very angry and I could not control it. Well, I could control myself, but I couldn't stop the blood pressure rise and the RAGE. Pure anger. And it occurred to me that I have not just been feeling like this for a few months, but since Ryan was born. Which would make it Post Pardum Depression, PPD.
I felt really bad, because I was trying to be a little rational and tell the doctor how I had been feeling and all that, and instead, I just started to cry. I apologized and told her that I didn't want to unload on her, but here was how I've been feeling. And, I just don't feel like me. I feel wrong and backwards and a million other things. I have no energy to do normal things around the house, much less to do things that I actually enjoy, like sewing, cross stitching, etc. etc. etc.
So, she asked me all the standard depression questions and did do a physical exam. She is doing blood work on me, but said that she really thought it was PPD.
So, as of 1/26/11, I take Zoloft. I go back in one month to check out how I feel. I am hoping there is a difference. Because right now, I have been like this for so long, that I feel like this is normal -- I just don't know how I will be different.
But, I am hoping that I will enjoy my life again. Because right now, I definitely don't. I try, but I just don't have it. I'm hoping that I find it again.
Saturday, January 22, 2011
So, Guess What?
I decided this week that starting over was unnecessary. That I should just keep going. Because it's all a part of who I am and where I came from.
Plus, I just wasn't writing that much any way. I felt silly trying to be anonymous, because only people that knew me were reading anyway, right.
I'm taking a page from Josh Hertel and trying to remember to write, at least once a week, something of value.
Ryan is 20 months now. He is the greatest thing evah! I mean, there are moments where I want nothing better than to smoosh his little face, but he is wonderful. He knows many words and just is so funny. So dramatic. A great dancer. The little blonde boy.
I don't know if anyone reads this one anymore, but maybe if I write a new post, someone will come back to read again.
Since we're still in January, I can still make my resolutions/goals for this year! :)
Let's take a look at what I wanted to accomplish for 2010:
1. Seriously, lose 20 pounds (which is the remaining baby weight); then I will stop looking 5 months pregnant and my pants will fit again
2. Pay credit cards down under 5k (tax refunds will help this significantly)
3. Save $500 for realz
I set my bar low-ish last year. How did I do?
1. Considering that by the end of 2009, I was actually close to where I was at 7 months preggo in weight, I came very close to this goal! I lost about 5 lbs in February, and kind of bounced around 225 over the summer and fall. In August, I suddenly decided it was time. I'd had enough! I started Weight Watchers again and really followed it. By the end of the year, I had lost another 10 pounds! So, I hover right around 215 now, give or take. But, I do need to exercise (like with the 30 day shred) because my knees sound god-awful again. But, I lost 15 pounds over 2010. Pretty frickin' good, if you ask me!
2. We borrowed money against my 401k this year and paid off my cards. I can sacrifice the small loss in retirement income for the big loss of debt and interest payments. So, the credit cards, all of them combined, are hovering right around this number too. So, I call this one very close too. With this year's refund, we will be down to the end of it -- and we are both thrilled.
3. We didn't save any money this year, but the focus on paying things off/down was the biggest part of that.
So, for 2011!
1. Finish paying off the credit cards (I think this can be done by the end of summer, for sure)
2. Start paying off the mortgage, so we have real equity in the house. We refinanced this year and lost most of it to closing costs. But, without credit card payments, we can start dumping an extra $400/month onto the house. That way, when we get ready to sell in the next few years, we will be able to buy another house.
3. Start saving an emergency fund of being able to pay bills for 3 months. Which is about $5000, I think. We'll start there.
4. Get pregnant with #2 (#4)
5. Lose another 10 pounds
6. Finish some of the craft projects that I have lying around (and there are MANY!)
I know, 4 and 5 conflict, but maybe I will lose the 10 lbs before the getting pregnant thing.
So, Happy Resolutions and happy back to blogging! I've missed it. I need to focus on something other than reading the internet for hours at night and watching TV.
Plus, I just wasn't writing that much any way. I felt silly trying to be anonymous, because only people that knew me were reading anyway, right.
I'm taking a page from Josh Hertel and trying to remember to write, at least once a week, something of value.
Ryan is 20 months now. He is the greatest thing evah! I mean, there are moments where I want nothing better than to smoosh his little face, but he is wonderful. He knows many words and just is so funny. So dramatic. A great dancer. The little blonde boy.
I don't know if anyone reads this one anymore, but maybe if I write a new post, someone will come back to read again.
Since we're still in January, I can still make my resolutions/goals for this year! :)
Let's take a look at what I wanted to accomplish for 2010:
1. Seriously, lose 20 pounds (which is the remaining baby weight); then I will stop looking 5 months pregnant and my pants will fit again
2. Pay credit cards down under 5k (tax refunds will help this significantly)
3. Save $500 for realz
I set my bar low-ish last year. How did I do?
1. Considering that by the end of 2009, I was actually close to where I was at 7 months preggo in weight, I came very close to this goal! I lost about 5 lbs in February, and kind of bounced around 225 over the summer and fall. In August, I suddenly decided it was time. I'd had enough! I started Weight Watchers again and really followed it. By the end of the year, I had lost another 10 pounds! So, I hover right around 215 now, give or take. But, I do need to exercise (like with the 30 day shred) because my knees sound god-awful again. But, I lost 15 pounds over 2010. Pretty frickin' good, if you ask me!
2. We borrowed money against my 401k this year and paid off my cards. I can sacrifice the small loss in retirement income for the big loss of debt and interest payments. So, the credit cards, all of them combined, are hovering right around this number too. So, I call this one very close too. With this year's refund, we will be down to the end of it -- and we are both thrilled.
3. We didn't save any money this year, but the focus on paying things off/down was the biggest part of that.
So, for 2011!
1. Finish paying off the credit cards (I think this can be done by the end of summer, for sure)
2. Start paying off the mortgage, so we have real equity in the house. We refinanced this year and lost most of it to closing costs. But, without credit card payments, we can start dumping an extra $400/month onto the house. That way, when we get ready to sell in the next few years, we will be able to buy another house.
3. Start saving an emergency fund of being able to pay bills for 3 months. Which is about $5000, I think. We'll start there.
4. Get pregnant with #2 (#4)
5. Lose another 10 pounds
6. Finish some of the craft projects that I have lying around (and there are MANY!)
I know, 4 and 5 conflict, but maybe I will lose the 10 lbs before the getting pregnant thing.
So, Happy Resolutions and happy back to blogging! I've missed it. I need to focus on something other than reading the internet for hours at night and watching TV.
Tuesday, November 09, 2010
Oh, was I blogging?
He walked a week after my last post. And hasn't stopped since. He was home sick for two days in August, right when he turned 15 months and he took like 4 steps across the living room right in front of me. And he's been going, going, going ever since.
It's pretty fun now. I still can't believe he went from nothing at his year appt, to crawling across the basement at Josh and Kristine's by the 4th of July to walking by the next month.
Little Boy is almost 18 months now; just a few more days to go. He really is SO much fun. Cars (the Pixar movie) is the favorite right now. Code name: "Vroom"; everything is "Mama" too; all objects and people. And when you answer the right name to something he is pointing to, he says "YEAH!!!"
We think that he might have a slight allergy/tummy trouble with Mac-n-Cheese, but not totally sure. Mac-n-cheese seems to coordinate with some sort of stomach bug he has at the time; but, they sure are some gross, gross diapers.
I can't wait for him to be potty trained so I don't have to change them anymore. All in due time.
It's pretty fun now. I still can't believe he went from nothing at his year appt, to crawling across the basement at Josh and Kristine's by the 4th of July to walking by the next month.
Little Boy is almost 18 months now; just a few more days to go. He really is SO much fun. Cars (the Pixar movie) is the favorite right now. Code name: "Vroom"; everything is "Mama" too; all objects and people. And when you answer the right name to something he is pointing to, he says "YEAH!!!"
We think that he might have a slight allergy/tummy trouble with Mac-n-Cheese, but not totally sure. Mac-n-cheese seems to coordinate with some sort of stomach bug he has at the time; but, they sure are some gross, gross diapers.
I can't wait for him to be potty trained so I don't have to change them anymore. All in due time.
Monday, August 09, 2010
Livin' on the Edge
All of the crawling and cruising around on the couches and pulling up has morphed into cruising around all of the furniture with a very delicate hand hold, all around the kitchen, into the backroom. Rinse and repeat. :)
He is so close to walking, I can taste it. Or maybe he can taste it. The strength is there, now it's just the balance part. His cousin was over late last week and he walks around all over the place. Little Boy was standing holding on to a toy in front of the TV watching J and I could see the wheels turning in his head: "Hey! I can do THAT." And therefore, he will. Because that has been his whole life so far -- I'm not gonna ANYTHING until I decide that I want to. Which is very, VERY much like his mother. Hopefully, we can take that personality trait and make it something useful, instead of counter-productive, as my tendencies swing.
We were at the baseball game on Saturday night, which was very fun. We lasted almost the whole game -- sat in the stands and cheered and got a bit scared by fireworks and when the Brewers were scoring runs -- Miller Park is very loud! :)
We went to the State Fair on Sunday morning. It only rained about an hour in the morning, so while it was raining, we had breakfast:
It was delicious!
I think that we have our annual tradition with him -- I plan on taking month pictures with the next baby too, and I tried my best with Little Boy, but these are good too:
What a difference a year makes! :)
The cream puffs are really good too! Little Boy slept through those again this year too. But, he does go with his daycare on Friday, so I'm sure that he will get one then.
I'll post video of him walking soon.
If more than two people read this, I would publicly out my sister-in-law, but since nobody does, it's not really publicly outing her. I will say that I'm kind of excited that they are having another baby in January. I don't know if I'm ready or not to have another one. I waiver back and forth. If these money things would go away, I would be set. Until then...I'll just be excited for them. In my totally stone-cold, anti-excited way. Especially if they have a girl. Because then I can buy dresses and make sweet stuff that involves me using up all my girl colored yarns and fabrics that I've been traveling with for the past 5 to 6 years.
He is so close to walking, I can taste it. Or maybe he can taste it. The strength is there, now it's just the balance part. His cousin was over late last week and he walks around all over the place. Little Boy was standing holding on to a toy in front of the TV watching J and I could see the wheels turning in his head: "Hey! I can do THAT." And therefore, he will. Because that has been his whole life so far -- I'm not gonna ANYTHING until I decide that I want to. Which is very, VERY much like his mother. Hopefully, we can take that personality trait and make it something useful, instead of counter-productive, as my tendencies swing.
We were at the baseball game on Saturday night, which was very fun. We lasted almost the whole game -- sat in the stands and cheered and got a bit scared by fireworks and when the Brewers were scoring runs -- Miller Park is very loud! :)
We went to the State Fair on Sunday morning. It only rained about an hour in the morning, so while it was raining, we had breakfast:
It was delicious!
I think that we have our annual tradition with him -- I plan on taking month pictures with the next baby too, and I tried my best with Little Boy, but these are good too:
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| 2009 - Almost 3 months old |
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| 2010 - Almost 15 months old |
The cream puffs are really good too! Little Boy slept through those again this year too. But, he does go with his daycare on Friday, so I'm sure that he will get one then.
I'll post video of him walking soon.
If more than two people read this, I would publicly out my sister-in-law, but since nobody does, it's not really publicly outing her. I will say that I'm kind of excited that they are having another baby in January. I don't know if I'm ready or not to have another one. I waiver back and forth. If these money things would go away, I would be set. Until then...I'll just be excited for them. In my totally stone-cold, anti-excited way. Especially if they have a girl. Because then I can buy dresses and make sweet stuff that involves me using up all my girl colored yarns and fabrics that I've been traveling with for the past 5 to 6 years.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Stormy Weather
They closed the storm drains because of construction debris and now the interstate is flooded; actually, both main North-South highways (43 and 45) are closed because of standing water covering the roadway.
This is some crazy stuff! There was 7.2 inches of rain at Channel 4 WTMJ, which is basically downtown, for lack of better geography.
We have a small lake in the basement, because the gutter was overflowing onto the ground by the NE corner and it just runs back into the house. We should fix that. Whoops!
In other house news, we are working on refinancing the house. Much better rate, much lower payment = amazing. We can possibly save $150 a month, which will go nicely on the credit cards; I'm thrilled!
Next up: Car refi to dump the 9.75% interest rate that we currently carry, which is totally absurd.
Little Boy is doing well -- lots of crawling and cruising and kneeling and babbling. I'm thinking that he will be walking by the end of summer; hopefully, once he has mastered that skill, the language will start to build again. He will babble in sentences; you can't understand him, but he speaks in sentences. Also, he has 99% mastered the toy that he got from my aunt and uncle for Christmas; I'm generally pretty impressed. With all of our worrying and fussing about him, he's turned out to be a very funny little boy. A very funny Daddy's boy. :)
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Lovely New Things
So, in honor of Little Boy learning to crawl and pull up and generally get into everything that he can, we purchased a new TV console/stand from BigLots!; everything was 20% today too, so it was only $109 with tax, instead of $130 plus tax. Best deal evah!
I know that I was just complaining about money; but this was Jake's summer gig money AND we needed it so Little Boy would stop turning on/off the power on the receiver; you can tell him 'no', but he likes to push the buttons anyway...Plus, we came up with a plan for the money situation, so I don't feel so badly about spending $100 for a super good deal.
Since Husband and I are insane, we waited to reset everything until 8pm and just finished right now; it's very, very nice, but that was a lot of work! It makes the living room look a bit bigger because the old one covered up the windows like 50% of the way.
So, now, Little Boy can go to town on cruising along the TV stand, but the volume will not be touched.
The next tooth came through today -- the center top right one, when you are facing him. He was VERY crabby all weekend; after 3 days of constantly being around him, I am ready for the break of working! I feel terrible for saying that, because I really do love him and he is the funniest little boy most of the time, but we spent a lot of time together this weekend and he was kind of cranky for most of it. But, we are up to 5 teeth now! I suppose the next top center one will start to come down and make a nuisance for a while.
My daycare was closed on Friday, because of the flooding, so I was home all day with Little Boy; we went out in the morning, as I was trying to force him through to just an afternoon nap (they have great success with this at daycare) and he passed out on me at 11am; he didn't wake up when I carried him in the house, when I changed his diaper and clothes, etc. I was shocked, but then again, he only slept an hour or so. Then, he had a nap from 3:15 until 4:45, so we could go with Daddy to his gig Friday night, but even then, he was wiped out by 8:30. Poor Little Boy. We ran him ragged all weekend. I think that there are times when he would prefer just to stay home and chill. We should probably be more sympathetic to that some days.
Since it's 10:30, it's probably time for bed for me, but more laundry awaits.
I know that I was just complaining about money; but this was Jake's summer gig money AND we needed it so Little Boy would stop turning on/off the power on the receiver; you can tell him 'no', but he likes to push the buttons anyway...Plus, we came up with a plan for the money situation, so I don't feel so badly about spending $100 for a super good deal.
Since Husband and I are insane, we waited to reset everything until 8pm and just finished right now; it's very, very nice, but that was a lot of work! It makes the living room look a bit bigger because the old one covered up the windows like 50% of the way.
So, now, Little Boy can go to town on cruising along the TV stand, but the volume will not be touched.
The next tooth came through today -- the center top right one, when you are facing him. He was VERY crabby all weekend; after 3 days of constantly being around him, I am ready for the break of working! I feel terrible for saying that, because I really do love him and he is the funniest little boy most of the time, but we spent a lot of time together this weekend and he was kind of cranky for most of it. But, we are up to 5 teeth now! I suppose the next top center one will start to come down and make a nuisance for a while.
My daycare was closed on Friday, because of the flooding, so I was home all day with Little Boy; we went out in the morning, as I was trying to force him through to just an afternoon nap (they have great success with this at daycare) and he passed out on me at 11am; he didn't wake up when I carried him in the house, when I changed his diaper and clothes, etc. I was shocked, but then again, he only slept an hour or so. Then, he had a nap from 3:15 until 4:45, so we could go with Daddy to his gig Friday night, but even then, he was wiped out by 8:30. Poor Little Boy. We ran him ragged all weekend. I think that there are times when he would prefer just to stay home and chill. We should probably be more sympathetic to that some days.
Since it's 10:30, it's probably time for bed for me, but more laundry awaits.
Monday, July 12, 2010
14 months
It's been a while and much has happened; Little Boy turned 1 and had a very fun birthday party with his cousin, J. The weather was really great and his Grandma flew in from MD to see him and J and all of us. It was a pretty good weekend; except Little Boy did not really enjoy the whole cake thing. Cookie was much more promising.
Little Boy also had his 1 year check up, which was great; I was worried about the fact that he wasn't crawling, or pulling up or any of that pre-walking type stuff. I shouldn't have worried, because within 1 week of that appointment, he was sitting up on his own, from his stomach, then army crawling, then regular crawling. Now, he crawls and pulls himself up to standing on lots of items. He can also sit on his knees and balance quite well. I give him the end of the summer before he's walking. Once he figures it out, I have a feeling he will be tearing through the house. He is just such a big boy now, it's amazing.
We really need to baby proof the house, but we are both too tired half the time to do anything during the week and the weekends have just been really, really busy lately. We'll get it soon.
The only other frustration that I have right now is that, while I would love to have another baby very soon, we just can't afford it. I try to figure out a way to pay things down and pay things off and whatnot and it just seems like it's impossible. I wish I could just stumble upon $10k (heck, even $5K would be beneficial at this point) to pay off credit cards and be done with it; if we paid off debt down to under $5k, I would be much, much happier. But, I will figure out a way to get through it and come out good on the other side.
Then, we can start all over again. :)
Little Boy also had his 1 year check up, which was great; I was worried about the fact that he wasn't crawling, or pulling up or any of that pre-walking type stuff. I shouldn't have worried, because within 1 week of that appointment, he was sitting up on his own, from his stomach, then army crawling, then regular crawling. Now, he crawls and pulls himself up to standing on lots of items. He can also sit on his knees and balance quite well. I give him the end of the summer before he's walking. Once he figures it out, I have a feeling he will be tearing through the house. He is just such a big boy now, it's amazing.
We really need to baby proof the house, but we are both too tired half the time to do anything during the week and the weekends have just been really, really busy lately. We'll get it soon.
The only other frustration that I have right now is that, while I would love to have another baby very soon, we just can't afford it. I try to figure out a way to pay things down and pay things off and whatnot and it just seems like it's impossible. I wish I could just stumble upon $10k (heck, even $5K would be beneficial at this point) to pay off credit cards and be done with it; if we paid off debt down to under $5k, I would be much, much happier. But, I will figure out a way to get through it and come out good on the other side.
Then, we can start all over again. :)
Thursday, May 13, 2010
1 year ago
It wasn't raining, but it was as gloomy. Weird.
Little Boy won't be 1 until 8:41pm tonight, but he's still ONE!!!
Happy Birthday Little Boy!
Pics later on. I'm at home today to try to clean up before we have people here next weekend.
Little Boy won't be 1 until 8:41pm tonight, but he's still ONE!!!
Happy Birthday Little Boy!
Pics later on. I'm at home today to try to clean up before we have people here next weekend.
Monday, April 05, 2010
I must have changed something...
I decided today that two things have happened, almost at the same time; or at least, they converged to change over at the exact same time, making neither Mama or Little Boy very happy at bedtime.
I think that Little Boy has decided that it is time for him to go to bed at 6:30, instead of 6 (or earlier!). Naps are much longer during the day. Unfortunately, I am not used to having to entertain him for this extra half hour, but I will oblige him this week in learning and thinking up new ways to entertain him for 30 more mins.
Additionally, I must have slowly started to change his bedtime routine to where there is NO bedtime routine. Just me deciding that it's time for him to go to bed. Both these changes have lead to screaming like the world is going to end at bedtime. Tonight, for instance, I tried to give him his bottle and have him go to bed at 6pm -- he looked tired and I thought he was ready. However, after listening to him crying brokenly for 15 mins, I went back in, picked him up and rocked with him while he finished a last 2 ounces and then he just laid with me and watched his mobile from the rocker. After 20 minutes of doing this, I laid him back down and all was well. And now, I think that he's probably asleep. or close. Silly Mama. Not doing what the little boy is telling you that he needs to do.
So, starting tomorrow, the bedtime routine will start around 6 or 6:10 instead of 5:30. and I will stick to his old one of jammies, a bottle in the rocking chair and then bed -- with all his animals and toys. I don't care if he plays in there for another hour, as long as he's happy and getting himself to sleep.
As the weather gets warmer, we can go for a walk or go outside for a bit after dinner; the sun will still be out and it will be warm enough for him. That will really help. Then, we can come inside at 5:45 or 6 and get ready for bed. We'll see what happens. Maybe I will try this and it won't work and he'll be crying brokenly at 6:30 instead of 6. But, considering that he's been waking at 5:30 for the past few days, I think a later bedtime is in order.
Another problem that we are having is with his diapers -- he had leaked through 4 of them in the past twenty four hours. I don't think that he's ever done that ever. So, I'm going to take all of them and strip them with Dawn and rewash everything. I don't know what the hell happened, but something did. And Jake changed the bedsheets once and I did once in the past few hours. Which is super annoying. And I'm just hoping that Little Boy doesn't leak out overnight. Because if I have to get up tonight, I will probably cry.
My friend at work forced me to read the first one and I have since finished the Twilight series. It was ok. It was a good story, but after the heartbreak of Harry Potter, I have decided to not expect too much from books, especially "series" books. My expectations will probably not be met. I would not mind more books on the characters in the story -- some of them were pretty good characters and I would have like more story. But, I suppose that is what fanfic is for. And I should know, I have read enough of it (X-Files and Harry Potter). I was going to wait until the last book came out on paperback, but I decided on Saturday that I couldn't wait until then, so I bought the hardcover. It was very enjoyable. I know many did not like it, but it was a good read for just getting lost in a story and not having to think about the real world. There was only one thing that kind of pulled my focus, and that was a small conversation where one of the characters quoted the Simpsons. It was kind of out of place for me. But, no matter. I kept going.
I guess if you're just looking for a good book to read where you don't have to think much, that would be it. :)
Off to wash diapers.
I think that Little Boy has decided that it is time for him to go to bed at 6:30, instead of 6 (or earlier!). Naps are much longer during the day. Unfortunately, I am not used to having to entertain him for this extra half hour, but I will oblige him this week in learning and thinking up new ways to entertain him for 30 more mins.
Additionally, I must have slowly started to change his bedtime routine to where there is NO bedtime routine. Just me deciding that it's time for him to go to bed. Both these changes have lead to screaming like the world is going to end at bedtime. Tonight, for instance, I tried to give him his bottle and have him go to bed at 6pm -- he looked tired and I thought he was ready. However, after listening to him crying brokenly for 15 mins, I went back in, picked him up and rocked with him while he finished a last 2 ounces and then he just laid with me and watched his mobile from the rocker. After 20 minutes of doing this, I laid him back down and all was well. And now, I think that he's probably asleep. or close. Silly Mama. Not doing what the little boy is telling you that he needs to do.
So, starting tomorrow, the bedtime routine will start around 6 or 6:10 instead of 5:30. and I will stick to his old one of jammies, a bottle in the rocking chair and then bed -- with all his animals and toys. I don't care if he plays in there for another hour, as long as he's happy and getting himself to sleep.
As the weather gets warmer, we can go for a walk or go outside for a bit after dinner; the sun will still be out and it will be warm enough for him. That will really help. Then, we can come inside at 5:45 or 6 and get ready for bed. We'll see what happens. Maybe I will try this and it won't work and he'll be crying brokenly at 6:30 instead of 6. But, considering that he's been waking at 5:30 for the past few days, I think a later bedtime is in order.
Another problem that we are having is with his diapers -- he had leaked through 4 of them in the past twenty four hours. I don't think that he's ever done that ever. So, I'm going to take all of them and strip them with Dawn and rewash everything. I don't know what the hell happened, but something did. And Jake changed the bedsheets once and I did once in the past few hours. Which is super annoying. And I'm just hoping that Little Boy doesn't leak out overnight. Because if I have to get up tonight, I will probably cry.
My friend at work forced me to read the first one and I have since finished the Twilight series. It was ok. It was a good story, but after the heartbreak of Harry Potter, I have decided to not expect too much from books, especially "series" books. My expectations will probably not be met. I would not mind more books on the characters in the story -- some of them were pretty good characters and I would have like more story. But, I suppose that is what fanfic is for. And I should know, I have read enough of it (X-Files and Harry Potter). I was going to wait until the last book came out on paperback, but I decided on Saturday that I couldn't wait until then, so I bought the hardcover. It was very enjoyable. I know many did not like it, but it was a good read for just getting lost in a story and not having to think about the real world. There was only one thing that kind of pulled my focus, and that was a small conversation where one of the characters quoted the Simpsons. It was kind of out of place for me. But, no matter. I kept going.
I guess if you're just looking for a good book to read where you don't have to think much, that would be it. :)
Off to wash diapers.
Monday, March 29, 2010
Springtime is (almost) here!
Hooray for springtime! I'm glad it's a bit early this year.
Little Boy is getting bigger and bigger. And he is just such a happy guy all the time now. He is cutting some teeth right now, we think, but he's still very enjoyable to have around. Lots of smiles and giggles and laughs and all that cute baby stuff. That is the best part. I have been waiting for this part. Where he can walk and talk a bit and be a bit more independent than before. It's a couple of months away from walking at least and same with talking, but you still see the growing and changing and it's wonderful.
He has nearly 99% switched over to table food. We told the new daycare to just try table food with him and he has really taken off. He'll gum down anything we put in front of him, pretty much. He loves peas and chicken; he has eaten pizza (both Toppers and homemade), hamburgers (McDonalds and homemade), fries, brats, green beans, pancakes -- you name it and he's probably tried it. He loves his food!
Little Boy is getting bigger and bigger. And he is just such a happy guy all the time now. He is cutting some teeth right now, we think, but he's still very enjoyable to have around. Lots of smiles and giggles and laughs and all that cute baby stuff. That is the best part. I have been waiting for this part. Where he can walk and talk a bit and be a bit more independent than before. It's a couple of months away from walking at least and same with talking, but you still see the growing and changing and it's wonderful.
He has nearly 99% switched over to table food. We told the new daycare to just try table food with him and he has really taken off. He'll gum down anything we put in front of him, pretty much. He loves peas and chicken; he has eaten pizza (both Toppers and homemade), hamburgers (McDonalds and homemade), fries, brats, green beans, pancakes -- you name it and he's probably tried it. He loves his food!
Monday, March 15, 2010
End of the "30 Day Shred"
So, did I really last all 30 days? No. I would take a break here and there because my knees needed it. And I pretty much blew off the last week, because of needing the mental break.
My results? Mixed. I really haven't lost any weight, based on the scale, but two days ago, the answer would have been different -- I would have lost 4 pounds overall, but I ate like crap the last weekend and I am paying for it now. oops.
Overall, I have lost 15 inches. Now, that's a LOT of measurements: Neck, Bust, Chest, Waist, Lower Waist, Hips, Thighs, Calves, Upper Arm and Forearm. But, there is a noticeable difference in the major ones -- I lost a lot of the extra back padding from being pregnant, so it's a little more good curvy back there. Now, I just need to lose this tummy padding. Stupid C-section.
My overall opinion:
It's a great way to kick start a workout regime for yourself -- if you can do the 30 days, then you can keep moving forward with something else. I definitely have more energy and my knees are doing MUCH better, since they are stronger.
The new plan: Level 3 workout from the Shred every other day, alternating with walking outside at work until we change buildings and I have access to the workout room. THEN, I will probably be working out on my lunch time every other day, along with the Level 3 Shred.
I am still trying to lose about 20 pounds before May 13, which is looming large at this point, but it still doable. I will at least try and that is the part that matters!
Little Boy had bronchiolitis this past week. Stupid RSV. He was fevery, then was a little better, then a cold, then back to fever and coughing and hacking and SNOT like you wouldn't believe! But, there is nothing to be done except to let it run it's course. And sure enough, by Friday afternoon, he was getting better. He's MUCH better as of today, and I am happy because he is sleeping all night again.
He is 10 months old now! I think that he's starting to get testy and frustrated with us, because he wants to do more moving around, but he can't, because he doesn't want to learn to crawl without a major battle and isn't really taking to the standing and holding onto things very well. He just isn't using his arms very well. Hands, yes; arms, not so much. I don't know how I feel about that. I'm going to give him another month and then I might call the office and talk to the other female doctor at the pediatrician, who, coincidentally, I went to high school with. That was definitely weird. I'm not super worried about him, but it's a little odd. He's just my little weirdo. :)
My results? Mixed. I really haven't lost any weight, based on the scale, but two days ago, the answer would have been different -- I would have lost 4 pounds overall, but I ate like crap the last weekend and I am paying for it now. oops.
Overall, I have lost 15 inches. Now, that's a LOT of measurements: Neck, Bust, Chest, Waist, Lower Waist, Hips, Thighs, Calves, Upper Arm and Forearm. But, there is a noticeable difference in the major ones -- I lost a lot of the extra back padding from being pregnant, so it's a little more good curvy back there. Now, I just need to lose this tummy padding. Stupid C-section.
My overall opinion:
It's a great way to kick start a workout regime for yourself -- if you can do the 30 days, then you can keep moving forward with something else. I definitely have more energy and my knees are doing MUCH better, since they are stronger.
The new plan: Level 3 workout from the Shred every other day, alternating with walking outside at work until we change buildings and I have access to the workout room. THEN, I will probably be working out on my lunch time every other day, along with the Level 3 Shred.
I am still trying to lose about 20 pounds before May 13, which is looming large at this point, but it still doable. I will at least try and that is the part that matters!
Little Boy had bronchiolitis this past week. Stupid RSV. He was fevery, then was a little better, then a cold, then back to fever and coughing and hacking and SNOT like you wouldn't believe! But, there is nothing to be done except to let it run it's course. And sure enough, by Friday afternoon, he was getting better. He's MUCH better as of today, and I am happy because he is sleeping all night again.
He is 10 months old now! I think that he's starting to get testy and frustrated with us, because he wants to do more moving around, but he can't, because he doesn't want to learn to crawl without a major battle and isn't really taking to the standing and holding onto things very well. He just isn't using his arms very well. Hands, yes; arms, not so much. I don't know how I feel about that. I'm going to give him another month and then I might call the office and talk to the other female doctor at the pediatrician, who, coincidentally, I went to high school with. That was definitely weird. I'm not super worried about him, but it's a little odd. He's just my little weirdo. :)
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