Monday, February 28, 2011

The Magic of the SSRI

It really does work for me. I'm on a low dose and it's been much, much easier to deal with life in general. Laundry is not so daunting. I don't feel like choking people at work or at home anymore. And trust me, that was at least an every other day thought for a while. Coping with life is much easier. And I feel like I can smile again. I never realized how bad it was until my friend who took another job at my company came back to visit me and have lunch and I could barely muster up the excitement to see her again. I was broken. Very, very broken.


Now? Much better. Bonus side effect: Appetite suppressant. I guess it could be taken as nausea, but I just find myself not needing to eat so much to feel normal or happy or whatever. So, I continue to lose weight. I have lost 14 pounds since September and approx. 20 lbs since last year at this time. I weighed in at 210 this morning and I had topped out around 231 right after the holidays in 2010. And since I have the weight to lose, I don't mind. I'm kind of hoping that I can get back to where I was in college, which was 175. Seems far away that I could get there, but I've lost 15 in the past 6 months, so who's to say I can't keep going?

So, I am happy with both items. I feel normal again and I'm losing the last of the Ryan weight.

On the baby front, that has been a chore at best. Gravida: 3; Para: 1 I'm aiming for Gravida: 4; Para: 2 (heck, let's be bold and aim for Gravida: 4; Para: 3! Haha!). Frankly, in my book of life, one more miscarriage and I will term it RPL and call Ryan a fluke. So, wish us luck in March. I could handle a Thanksgiving baby.

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