I wish that I knew what triggered these...

For the first time in a very long time, I dreamt about Branden again.

Another weird one where everyone knew that he had passed away, but he was still there in the room anyway. And nobody really minded. Of course. I just remember being so upset that I couldn't talk to him, which most people were doing...someone was talking to him, but now I don't remember who, but it was when I noticed that he was there in the room.

There was a musi hist test going on, which I didn't have to take. Let me tell ya, there was a whole lot of crazy jumping around from situation to situation in this one.

I want to say it was James talking to him, but I'm not totally sure.

But, anyway, I was so upset about it that I knew if I talked to him I would just burst out crying, but Andrea forced me to talk to him by announcing something to the entire room about how much she loved him, I think.

I remember fighting going over to talk to him and being kind of angry with Andrea for focusing the room over on where we were. (GOSH, this sounds selfish)When did go talk to him, all I could do was hug him and I burst out crying. All I could say was "why did it have to be you?" After that, we communicated by writing in red felt tipped marker pen on an old typewriter. I don't know why I couldn't just speak to him, like everyone else was doing, but since I only remember one person talking to him, maybe that person was different. But, I just kept crying. And then I woke up and I still don't know if I was crying in my sleep or I started right after I woke up, but I was really upset.

But, I am convinced that this one was probably my brain scrunching things together over the past couple weeks of people (and animals) that have passed away.

the more I think about it, the more I am convinced that he was sitting next to James and talking with him. at least before I went over by him.

I don't dream about him too often, and I hate dreaming about it in a way that makes me seem more important than I was in his world, but when I do, I have to write it all down or I just feel weird the whole day.

I wasn't planning on another post, but here it is anyway. I guess I just miss him. Or I miss Andrea. or both. or junkyard. Can't wait to see everyone on Friday. :)

On a completely unrelated note to above: Did anyone see those "webisodes" from BSG on scifi.com? I think G.nate wrote about them. They are kind of cool. I love that show. I really wish that we could get cable before they start again. But, I would want to get digital cable to get BBC America too. Maybe I'll just order it and money be damned. You can't take it with you anyway.

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