Decisions

Today, just now, while trying to keep Ryan calm -- he's been up a lot today and screaming a lot -- I decided a few things, which I hopefully will accomplish over the next year (god, I just wrote week! I wish!)

First:
1. Lose at least 50 pounds, if not 75.
Okay, I know this is really, really difficult, but I need to do it. I still have 15 pounds of preggo weight sitting on my frame and I probably could have lost 50 then. So, 50 to 75 anyway. I would like to be a normal size with room to spare the next time I am going to get preggo, so I have some room to get "fat".
I'm not really sure how I am going to do this, but I may go talk to my doctor, since I am having some other body problems and ask how I go about doing this task. My other body problems I think are cysts in my wrist and knee, both on the right side. The wrist doesn't hurt, it just looks like I have a bone in the wrong place. The knee hurts when I kneel on it and that sucks.
But, I know that I will need to do SOME sort of hard core exercise, I'm just not sure what. And I'd like to talk to a nutritionist, I think, to see what would be healthy to eat. I try weight watchers, but I have a tendency to not eat very healthy with WW. I can't follow the points thing anymore. In college, it was okay, but not now for me. I really need to be told what to eat. :)

Whoops. Jake and I both gave Ryan his meds within a 2 hour period. He'll be fine. Maybe he needed the double dose. :)

Anyway, I've been eating salads and stuff for lunch everyday, to trying to kick stuff my self, but, I really need to fit a aerobic activity that I enjoy -- running just isn't my thing, unfortunately. So, I've gotta find something. Rollerblading is out.
Here's why:

It's June 2005. I've been in River Falls for a month, by myself, while Jake is working in EC for the rest of the summer and I've started my crappy job at US Bank. I decide one night after work to go rollerblading around the area, to keep up what I had been doing in EC before the wedding. So, I put on my shorts and tank top and head out from the apartment. The apartment building is on a big ass hill, but I think that I will be fine. About half way down, I realize that I am in deep shit. So, I try to make it across the street and onto the grass of the people across the street. About 2 feet before I make the grass, my feet come out from under me and I land ass, elbows and head onto the pavement and SLIDE for a good foot on the pavement. There was a grease mark for MONTHS after. So, I crawled onto the grass, praying that nobody saw me do that, because I didn't have ANY clue what I was going to do at that point. I have NO idea what I look like, but I know that I hurt. I go back up the hill, into the apartment and call Jake, hyserical. I could barely talk. He hightailed it from EC to RF (which is an hour) and I laid on my stomach on our bed and tried not to think about it. My elbows were both bloody, my brain hurt and my butt was one big case of road rash. Jake did his place to clean me up and we went up to Hudson to find some bandages for me, but I was in rough shape. I woke up in the middle of the night that night and felt like I was going to fall over.

I couldn't go to work the next day, because I could barely sit. I had to go to the medical clinic in RF and I saw the doctor. Well, first the nurse took my temperature which was 102. My body was so traumatized, I actually had a fever. Crazy! They prescribed some medicines and treatments and sent me on my way. I spent that day laying on the couch at home. It took a good week or two for my butt to heal -- I remember showing my parents around the 4th of July in Green Bay what my rear looked like -- RIDIC!! My elbows took longer and the scabs ended up coming off at some point, so I have scars now from it. And a terrible fear of rollerblading. I tried in Tosa when we lived in the apartment there, but no go. Too nervous. The end.

And that's why rollerblading doesn't fly anymore. Too bad for that. I loved rollerblading around the bike path.

I guess I could take up biking, but I would need a new bike stat. Maybe for my birthday, but get it early -- like now, before winter hits. In the winter, I can always walk on the treadmill. I'll talk to Jake about it.

2. pay off our stupid credit cards -- they are a little ridic. The Cap One, we need to pay off before January 1st, because we have no interest for a year, but if we haven't paid it off by then, all the interest will accrue, which would be bad. The US Bank one isn't so bad, but paying it off is a slow process. So, we'll give it a year. Hopefully, this time next year, there will be less than $500.

I think that's it for now. those are sizable enough, I think.